Miserable

Anxiety or depression? Where does this go?

I am lonely. I feel like I have no where to go. I am still having trouble leaving the house.

I posted on PtSD and no one wrote back. I feel like an idiot.

I was never like this.

It has been 1 year since I became this way. ONE YEAR. I can't gain weight. I can't drive - ok, once in 2 weeks.

I feel like I am going nuts. All of this was caused by that stupid jerk and it won't go away.

I don't know how to rejuvenate myself.

The holidays have been screwed up since we moved. We are going to my sister's boyfriend's house. I don't want to go there.

I have been trying to write a paper for 2 weeks. It is taking FOREVER. I used to be able to write a paper like this in 2 days. I am afraid I won't finish.

I am scared. I don't know how to solve this one. It's like I pushed way too hard for a year and a half and didn't know I was putting myself at risk for any kind of mental health problem. I should have.

My day is like this: make myself get up, eat, go back to bed.

Nightmare.

(((((((((((((((((((((Yack)))))))))))))))))))))) I hope for the day that it's not this hard for you.

Safe wishes to you.

KD

(((((((((((((Yack)))))))))))))

Sounds like you need a mental break. Sometimes when I'm like that I find a quiet place at a park, or in my room, or somewhere where i feel calm and I make myself stay there for a few hours. I listen to what i feel inside, write, and let it come out. Sometimes there are feelings inside that need to be expressed. We care about you. Keep talking and reaching out.

Yack, it sounds pretty bad at the moment. What stopping you with the paper?

Could you maybe set aside some time each day to work on it. Say 2 hours and you are not allowed to stop until you have done 2 hours work.

I know its easier said than done. Ive had that feeling too where I can hardly function as a person let alone carry out any additional tasks.

I wish there was something tangible I could say/offer that would resolve this for you.

Its just the worse place to be in and Im thinking of you and hoping that something improves soon.

Atg

{{{{{{{{{YACK}}}}}}

Wanted to let you know I care! I agree with the other posters. Be gentle with yourself right now!

Yack, take it one thing at a time...you'll get there...I have faith in you. You will accomplish everything you need to accomplish if you just focus on one thing at a time. Don't look at the whole picture, just parts of it....see if that helps...

I know you are in a lot of pain and realize that you need our support. I am here if you need someone to talk to.

(((yack))) you're catastrophizing.. ( I can tell because I used to do this all the time) http://forums.psychcentral.com/showf...=5&o=2&fpart=1 ppl did respond to your ptsd post...

ptsd is that way sometimes. One year? I'm sorry. Therapy can help you more than it can me... the earlier you get expert help, the better you will become inspite of the pstd.

You're overwhelmed. It is what it is. The more you struggle the worse you will feel (kind of like that chinese finger puzzle?) TC.

((((((((Yack))))))))))
I'm so sorry you're still going through this horrible nightmare. It really stinks how one person can screw up such a beautiful life with so much hope and potential. You haven't lost that hope or that potential but it's taken a detour.
Please, try to remain confident in your abilities. You have it in you. It's still there. There's just a thick fog clouding your way there. You'll find it again, though. I hope this fog lifts soon.

Thank you all so very much for your support...

Yes, I know I am catastrophizing....

I just want to be that person I was NOW...I know, I know, it's gradual...I hate that...

I have 9 pages done on the paper and one week left...It will get done...I know that it will...it just took a good friend YELLING at me to get out of bed to do it....She said to me Jackie, you are smart. Stop. You are still there, just write the paper.

I just feel lost, like my whole identity is gone...

Even my psychiatrist said I am getting better. I keep saying, I wish you had known me before...

*Hugs* So sorry you're suffering.

Oh I know that feeling... if you had known me before... but that is nearly 19 years for me now! I know you have been suffering for a year, and that is a long time... been there.... I'm surprised your friend was able to motivate you by saying that! Ok... get it done! hehehe going through the motions often creates a decent end result... (((hugs))