[looking4sunshine]

Okay this is really hard to go into but I need some direction...I have recently not been feeling so well I have been having a rapid heart beat, a feeling of passing out/fainting, extreme exhaustion, not wanting to leave my house for fear of harm coming to me and my children, an obsession with my biggest fear death, migraines, short temper, lack of interest in life and the things I used to, disorientation, shakiness, easily startled, and not being able to sleep. Now this all has been on and off for years but recently it has gotten really bad. I think it has something to do with the fact we recently moved to a new state under serious misleading information, I was pregnant and we had our 3rd son via emergency c-section 2 months early and he has had major problems and been in and out of the hospital. My three year old disobeys a lot and doesn't talk very much and my 18 month old bangs his head in frustration. My hubby works 80+ hours a week and we are still having my family pay the cable/internet/phone bill and other things as well. I have been denied for health care through the state because he "makes too much"...I am under extreme stress and physically just feel I can't take anymore...I am only 24 and this seems a bit too much for me to handle, I want to love my children unconditionally but it seems they can't be good long enough for me to enjoy them...my hubby and I fornicate once every 2 weeks or so which limits our closeness...and I really just am tired of having my life be such an up-hill battle for happiness...I don't know if maybe I should seek treatment and if so what kind of diagnosis are my family and I looking at? I went for a start of treatment before but now my financial situation has gotten harder with 3 kids and limited help so even on a sliding scale I am unable to pay...please please any advice would help...if there is something I can do at home I would do it but I don't really see a light at the end of the tunnel

[Mouse_]

HI, sounds like you have a lot on your plate at the moment.

[DOWNINNATICK]

How are you doing today, I hope you're doing better and that you can see your doctor or a counselor, it seems that is what you really need to get medications to help with the rapid pulse and mood swings. They can be hellish at times, my husband always feels he is about to step on a landmind with mine.

Have a great day, and post as often as needed.

[Sannah]

Hi Sunshine, yeah, a lot of stressors going on there for you. About your children. They are stressed too because of your stress and this can cause misbehavior. I think that it would help if you could pull together with them and realize that they need help and comforting too, just like you. Can you take your children and quietly interact with them/hug them, etc.?

One thing that I learned from being a mother is that we set the stage. If we aren't proactive and have positive interacts with our children then they will set the stage with negative behaviors because they are only children and don't know about any of this. If they set the stage with negative behaviors then we just spend our day reacting to this. If the parent sets the stage right away with positive interactions the children will fall right into it and enjoy it immensely.

I think that it will also help to keep posting here.

So have you had issues with anxiety previously in your life?

[Fuzzybear]

[monyarwy]

how are you doing today ihope you are ok