[Cthomas]

Ok.....so today is the big 4 0

what have i accomplished??? a pissed off husband, who slowly is getting better, and wanting me around.

No computer certs like I wanted.

Never went to college.....cant pay all my bills in the same month...

fantastic!

[pegasus]

Yes I felt like that on my 40th aswell!

Hope your Birthday gets better!

[Lenny]

Happy Birthday Cthomas...and congrats on surviving 4 decades....

There is something to that you know,,just surviving against some very formidable odds..

But,,if you could,,and please be fair to yourself,,,how bout listing some of the things you have accomplished...we are our worst critics and often very unfair..

I have read many of your posts and behind your words is great wisdom born of varied experience...

Again,,kindness to oneself is the seed to giving..

With Respect,

Lenny

[Cthomas]

Thanks lenny
I dint feel very wise or important. I guess I need to stop beating out the negative and accentuate the positive

I'm trying. I'm really trying
Thanks for the positive
Colleen

[Lenny]

Sometimes what we feel and what is real are separated by fear.

Some of our most genuine feelings are those about people, places and things outside of ourselves. That is why the advice and councel of close friends and family are so priceless...they often see the real us. We often distort ourselves to fill some script..

Your negatives are such a small part of you..

Lenny

[Cthomas]

Thanks. I'm just a downer today. I don't feel good about me. Checking acct is almost in the negative. Can't handle bills right now. Feels like my job is going nowhere. At work right now and I can't wait to come home and put my head under the pillows

Still trying. And wishing I'd win the lottery

[Cthomas]

So my 40th came and went, me wanting to SI the whole evening. The husband worked, didnt get me so much as a card. all of my family except my mom forgot, as did all my close friends.....(not so close maybe?) Did you ever get the impression that youre non-important? I got the answer........last night.

You're important. People who say you aren't are just miserable and mean- you matter.

[Cthomas]

Thanks griffe.....i think thats all i wanted....a hey youre important to me....happy birthday. im glad youre here.

In the meantime, i sat in bed. thanks to you guys i DO feel important....thanks to my mom too.

colleen

[nowheretorun]

sorry i missed this C, it sucks to feel unimportant... no one is unimportant, we all deserve a chance to heal and feel better... some days are harder than others... i hope things get better for you soon

[mak62184]

Hey! I don't know you, but Happy Belated Birthday!

If it makes you feel any better, today was my sister's 22nd birthday, and we celebrated last night instead. Of course because everything was going well, it reminded me of how much my 24th birthday ended up sucking in June. I got snark from my sister on wearing a sun dress to dinner, she basically ruined my enjoyment of my cake by saying that I would get fat from eating it, and hardly anyone did anything really nice. My mom just gave me my birthday present like it was nothing because I was there when we picked it out.

And yesterday, my sister pretty much put down what I gave her because it wasn't exactly what she needed, although she never told me what it was.

So if nothing like that happened, consider yourself lucky. And there are people who love you.