[UCLAFan]

The last few weeks.Not been feeling well.Emotionally a mess.Ever since it was my 28th birthday.The majority of family.Did not acknowledge my birthday.Then my faveorite hobbie.The one thing that i enjoy.That makes me happy.Even just for a little while.Is coming to an end.It's baseball.Then i have a long 6 months.Before baseball starts again.At the games.I have ushers and others to talk to.During the off season.I hardly have anyone to talk to.At times when i'm at home.All i do is sit around and feel bummed out and sorry for myself.I go out now and then.But other than the baseball games.I do not feel comfortable hanging out or even talking to people.Also i have not been in a relationship for years and i feel like an ugly loser.I feel like my love life is hopeless.Plus here i don't have any close reliable friends.My close friends live in Cali.I live in IL near STL.My experince with people in the area i live.Has not been good.Been used.Been talked about behind my back etc.Even a social worker.Treated me badly.That's a long story.

[DOWNINNATICK]

Sorry UCLAfan that you are feeling so low, maybe you can find another sport or hobby that will help make you feel better. If you don't feel the social worker was any good you should find another one that will help you and someone you can talk to about things, that is very important. Find some support groups to go to and try to get out and do things you like. There is someone out there for you, sometimes it just takes time to find that right person, but that person is there. You are not ugly, it's just your depression making you feel all the negative things and making us think that everyone is taking about us, but we just have to learn to say, to heck with you all, I am great, beautiful and fun to be with.

Hugs

[nightbird]

Dear UCLA,

I hope you join a support group or maybe find another sport to fill in for baseball off-season.

Sometimes, a club, or activism group might spark some friendships and places to go or new things to care about.

It's almost time to vote again, and maybe your area is looking for volunteers to work the polls, another good way to meet people, and other volunteer situations like at the local firehouse, or paramedics would bring some rewards.

I find the best way to clue into a place, where the people are good, is to go where they go, and in the meantime, take care of yourself, because you are a great person and just need some new friends to brighten up your day and share some interests.

The relationship thing, well, love will find you, so go and get busy living your life and go where you feel safe and peaceful, and I betcha a dozen donuts that that is where love will find you!

Bet on?

Peace and Love,
night

[UCLAFan]

Thanks u 2.My ex social worker is from the Epilepsy association.They only have 2 social workers.I'm an x client and an ex voulnteer.I use to volunteer there a lot,.Untill my now ex Social worker excused me of acting inapproiate infront of a teenage client.Plus my social worker threatened me.She says i cussed infront of a teeanger and talked about sex.Which i never talk like that.I have volunteered for years at a Epilepsy camp for kids.Never had any problems till this year.My ex social worker was the one talking inappriate one night.Not me.Plus when she threatend me.She said she'd come over to my apartment and kick my ***.I past relationships and friendships.I have been to nice.Meaning put up with lots.But i'm burnt out on being nice and peoples doormat.

Originally Posted by DOWNINNATICK

Sorry UCLAfan that you are feeling so low, maybe you can find another sport or hobby that will help make you feel better. If you don't feel the social worker was any good you should find another one that will help you and someone you can talk to about things, that is very important. Find some support groups to go to and try to get out and do things you like. There is someone out there for you, sometimes it just takes time to find that right person, but that person is there. You are not ugly, it's just your depression making you feel all the negative things and making us think that everyone is taking about us, but we just have to learn to say, to heck with you all, I am great, beautiful and fun to be with.

Hugs