[Rhapsody]

I am feeling blue today and I am not sure what brought it on other than maybe an intense dream, which I can't remember much of..... I woke up with this sad cloud over my head (with tears wanting to flow).

Wishing it would go away -

[BlueFaith]

(((( Rhap )))) I'm sorry you are sad today. I'd take it all away if I could. I hope things get better. I'm thinking of you.

[reddevil]

((((((Rhapsody))))))

I hope it goes away soon. We're here for you whilst it lasts.

[Edahn]

Why do you want it to go away? What's so bad about it?

[nightbird]

That happens to me sometimes.

I will try and think hard if it was a dream, or my emotions about one thing or another surfaced before or upon my waking up.

Usually, I go with it, and let the tears cleanse away - this way I can think about it more clearly after.

What did bring it on?
What is it my mind and emotions are trying to tell me?

What am I feelings just below the surface that I need to face or address or at least note?

I find this helps me move through the rest of the day better, when it happens so early.

I did discover, for me, some of those tearful awakenings recently are due to my waking-up realizing that I have no one around me and it's another day where I face some more serious things without the people I want to comfort and be around me the most IRL ... that I miss them ... that I am facing things basically alone. This is very sorry making for me. A sadness that re-appears.

The tears cleanse me and I can think. I then reaffirm the positives, and go about changing the things in my life that I do not currently want or like at all, for that matter. I have now figured out what to do about this particular sadness, but I must wait for a year or so to accomplish the solution.

By the time I'm going about my day, I find things to smile about, even laugh at, or get seriously down to business with, and it's all because I decided how I was going to feel about things I can control within myself.

It's when we are caught like this, unaware in the morning, greeted with such sadness, that it is hard to think, when we are figuring out what has happened.

Allowing myself to cry does helps me feel better afterwards.
I let it go. I trust myself that this is teaching me something I really need to know.

I'll cry a river if that's what it takes.
I want to get better.

I hope it was okay to share these thoughts with you.

Peace and Comfort,
night

xoxoxo

[nowheretorun]

i believe this sadness will only stay a short time for you Rhapsody.. inside you is the fighter and defeater of depression and sad things... i hope as you think this thing over and what its all about, you find a passageway beyond the current dark moments.. my inner instinct about you tells me you eat this sort of thing for breakfast and smile and wave on your way on tothe next minor irritations... a vet like you knows its temporary... sending you strength if needed...

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((((((((((((((Rhapsody)))))))))))))))))))))))))) I hope your day improved. Thinking of you.

BB

[Fuzzybear]

[Rhapsody]

Originally Posted by nowheretorun

my inner instinct about you tells me you eat this sort of thing for breakfast and smile and wave on your way on to the next minor irritations...

Thanks for the laugh in my time of darkness... and it is funny as breakfast that morning actually made me sick to my stomach.

[Rhapsody]

Thanks for all the replies and well wishes... I am doing a little better today and I apologize for not getting back with all you guys sooner, but I floated away for a day or two after I expressed my feelings here in open forum.

I seem to be dealing with a loss of people, time and self these days.... with my youngest son being off to college most days and hubby at work the house is empty and quite for long hours at a time.... which can but only led to boredom for me.

Not to mention that a part of me has returned that wants to get out of the house right now and cannot as my youngest son is using my car to drive back & forth to college until his school loan comes thru some time this month - the he will get his own car...

and that with in its self leaves me with another dilemma as I am afraid that if I get a part time job or volunteer some where so I can get out of the house it will not last long as there are two sides to every thing I do in my life due to my DID - my last alter and I both want different things..... so one will work for six months then the other one will take over and want to flee in order to return home where she feels safe from people and harm. *sigh*

Oh - to live with in my life.... no wonder I am feeling blue these days.

[Murdoch]

Sorry to hear mate. Hope you get through it ok

[nowheretorun]

(((Rhapsody)))) the bright side would be that you have choices, the hard part is choosing? one side would find joy the other might be the side that says... theres something else.... and there is something else for you and maybe thats what is called abundance? i pray all options for you are good.... i believe that our inner spirit leads us onward to wards the better and better, even when we possess good health we go for better health... is it something like that calling you? sending care always...