[sephonjv]

Well, I don't know if it is a proper thing to do, this, creating another thread in the same forum? Normally, in other forums, this is not allowed, but then again, the mods will approve whether this thread is worthy or not. It doesn't matter anyways...

I didn't want to do anything today. Recently I was happy that Simone, the dearest of people, wanted me to make her a cd with demos of my songs for christmas. I tried it out today, but I just can't seem to play anything right currently, there's just something wrong. When I start playing, some blocking instance is present and tells me that I should stop. I don't know why. I really love playing music and was very able at it until for about half a year ago when I didn't practice for a long time. Now, I don't know... I know what melodies I should play, but I can't seem to play them well in my own ears.

I didn't sleep tonight. I didn't go to school today. Autumn holidays ended yesterday, but I didn't want to show up being the way I am right now. I don't feel like anything. It's terrible, and I really should have worked on the songs. I just can't.

[skymonk]

I've had these kinds of days when it comes to my writing or reading of self help books. I know there are things I enjoy doing&am good at, but just can't get the get up&go to follow through. What instrument do you play? Are you writing your own music? Remember it's pretty impressive if you can do any of these things, even if it's not all of the time. Who knows? Maybe you'll feel different in a little while. I know it's hard to be patient for the good things to come back, but they always do. You just have to be receptive&know what you want. "Don't just dream it, be it!" PM me anytime.

Originally Posted by sephonjv

Well, I don't know if it is a proper thing to do, this, creating another thread in the same forum? Normally, in other forums, this is not allowed, but then again, the mods will approve whether this thread is worthy or not. It doesn't matter anyways...

I didn't want to do anything today. Recently I was happy that Simone, the dearest of people, wanted me to make her a cd with demos of my songs for christmas. I tried it out today, but I just can't seem to play anything right currently, there's just something wrong. When I start playing, some blocking instance is present and tells me that I should stop. I don't know why. I really love playing music and was very able at it until for about half a year ago when I didn't practice for a long time. Now, I don't know... I know what melodies I should play, but I can't seem to play them well in my own ears.

I didn't sleep tonight. I didn't go to school today. Autumn holidays ended yesterday, but I didn't want to show up being the way I am right now. I don't feel like anything. It's terrible, and I really should have worked on the songs. I just can't.

[Miracle1986]

((((seph))))

[sephonjv]

Originally Posted by skymonk

I've had these kinds of days when it comes to my writing or reading of self help books. I know there are things I enjoy doing&am good at, but just can't get the get up&go to follow through. What instrument do you play? Are you writing your own music? Remember it's pretty impressive if you can do any of these things, even if it's not all of the time. Who knows? Maybe you'll feel different in a little while. I know it's hard to be patient for the good things to come back, but they always do. You just have to be receptive&know what you want. "Don't just dream it, be it!" PM me anytime.

Thank for this reply, I have never considered playing music that way. I play piano, or keyboard as it is now, I rarely use our old piano anymore... I was quite good at it about two years ago, and I kinda lost it over some time. However, now I try sometimes to retrieve the skills once again, and I just simply can't make myself play. I write my own music as well, and that is actually one of the ways I have attempted to get away from this mess. Some of the pieces are also somewhat adequate, in my own opinion.

I haven't left my room except for doing my natural duties for the last 24 hours. I just don't feel like it. However, I decided to go to school tomorrow. I hope that I will not be as terrible as I've been in the last couple of days... I think I'll go and get something to eat now, I guess.

[sephonjv]

I just found out that I was unable to send private messages at this point, I am truly sorry.