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Old Nov 03, 2008, 12:40 PM
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I'm proud of myself!
I went to the first day of my 'Work Preparation Course' at the Back In Touch project.
I stood outside the door and was so anxious, I nearly turned around and walked away (but then I thought to myslef... now what exactly is that going to do... prove I'm not capable of making myself better, prove that the depression/anxiety has control over me, prove that I'm letting it win) I don't want it to win, so I took a deep breath, closed my eyes, pushed open the door and pressed the buzzer for the project. Nicki let me in and asked if I wanted to speak to her first to calm down before I went in to the room where the course was being held... but I thought no, I'll end up turning around, I need to get it all over and done with as quick as I can... I went in, with Nicki... she introduced me and then left.
Still REALLY scared at this point (shaking slightly, feeling sick), but then I saw the people that were already there... they were in the same position as me, they all looked so scared to be there, so if they could do it, so could I. I relaxed a little then... the course (which is only 2 hours, on a monday and wednesday) went well, I talked to the guy sat next to me and I participated a bit.
Coming out of the course felt like loosing a stone, didn't realise how tense I was.... but I did it!

Next big step... going to speak with the headmistress at the infant school tomorrow about volunteering there. scared, scared, scared, scared, scared!
This should really be in the anxiety forum? But, I thought that this achievement was a good step with my depression too and I wanted to share it with you guys.
Now I gotta try and keep my head up this evening and not to let things get to me.

Anyways, I'll stop babbling
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love you all... you all helped me do this today!!!!!
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Old Nov 03, 2008, 12:44 PM
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Good for you, Molly! That's such an accomplishment. You should be proud of yourself! It's great when we can take steps forward. You did a good job! Yay!
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Old Nov 03, 2008, 12:44 PM
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(((((((((((( Molly )))))))))))))))) I am proud of you too, that's a big achievement.
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Old Nov 03, 2008, 12:44 PM
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Yay!!!!!!! Go Molly!!!!!! Proud of you.
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Old Nov 03, 2008, 12:54 PM
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Molly----you brought tears to my eyes!! I'm so happy for you! You didn't just take a big step--you leaped!! How very smart of you to look and see that others were nervous and scared and too. And to be able to talk to someone else in class is huge. Nikki sounds very understanding and caring. Molly, I hope you walked a little taller and prouder on your way home!! You are awesome!!!
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Old Nov 03, 2008, 01:03 PM
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Good Work!!!!
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Old Nov 03, 2008, 01:16 PM
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That is just amazing, i would be so proud too what a great leap you have just taken. That in itself is a victory
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Old Nov 03, 2008, 01:54 PM
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YAY! You Go Girl!!! Bravo!!! That is so cool to hear! I'm proud of you too!!!!
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Old Nov 03, 2008, 02:36 PM
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Oh I'm so happy right now just hope it lasts. I want to reply to everyone else's posts whilst I'm happy, but there are some loud fireworks real close so I'll have to bring Pad and Ringo in and take care of them and Izzy... but I will share my happiness and joy later... PROMISE!

I love you all, thank you so so much
You're all amazing people, don't know what I'd do without you guys
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Old Nov 03, 2008, 02:37 PM
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See, everyone is so happy for you they decided to set fireworks off!!
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Old Nov 03, 2008, 03:31 PM
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Proud... me... :)

has anyone told you lately that they love you?
well, consider yourself told!!!!
sending positive thoughts and heartfelt feelings of sisterly-love to you!

I am so dang proud of you too!!!!

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Old Nov 03, 2008, 03:43 PM
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Way to go ..... such a wonderful positive post ...... love Jinny xoxoxoxoxo
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What a difference a day makes ay! Good for you! (((((((((( Molly )))))))))
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Old Nov 04, 2008, 06:07 AM
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Thank you thank you thank you all!!!


Really anxious at the moment... that appointment with infant schools headmistress is soon, I'll keep you updated


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Proud... me... :)

has anyone told you lately that they love you?
well, consider yourself told!!!!
sending positive thoughts and heartfelt feelings of sisterly-love to you!

I am so dang proud of you too!!!!

Love, Your Friend,
night
xoxoxoxo
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Old Nov 04, 2008, 07:55 AM
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Old Nov 04, 2008, 08:06 AM
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(((((((((((((silver_moon))))))))))))))

you did good, fingers crossed for interview at the school
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Old Nov 04, 2008, 08:21 AM
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MORE NEWS!!!!!!!!

Just come back from the infant school... oh they're so cute I love 'em
The head-teacher was great, really friendly (in fact all the staff I met today were) and she is really glad for me to help out... at the moment I'll be going in all day every Thursday and I'll be working in year 1... (they are called the 'dolphins' awwwwww) (year one children are 5 to 6 year olds)
I'm starting this Thursday... THIS Thursday... as in two days away!!!!!!!!!
I'm excited... a little bit nervous because it's been a long time since I've 'worked' for a whole day and I haven't yet met the teacher I will be working with. But YAY! I'm excited!!!!

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Old Nov 04, 2008, 08:27 AM
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Proud... me... :) Proud... me... :)
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Old Nov 04, 2008, 08:56 AM
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Molly--this is absolutely wonderful!!! YOU are absolutely wonderful!!! How great is this!!! I just knew you could do it. Molly and the dolphins!!! Proud... me... :) I am so excited for you!!! Isn't it amazing how things happen!!! You have so much to give those little kids, and the fact that all the staff is wonderful will be such a help to you!!!
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Old Nov 04, 2008, 12:43 PM
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Thank you I'm really excited about it now... and I think just being there in general will help me, I think it will help with my confidence a lot.
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Old Nov 04, 2008, 01:13 PM
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Dear Molly,

Thank you, for sharing your life. I am really happy, you are feeling better.

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