[walk_alone2202]

I've felt like this before... and i've even told my parents. They keep saying that it's just a phase and that i'll grow out of my depression, but i don't know if i will. I've been like this since i started senior school. I started cutting in year 8 through to year 9, and i've just cut again... everyone in my form seems to be against me... i feel paranoid; tired; dead. literally. i don't know why i feel this way... but i need help.

[satansgetawaydriver]

i get paranoid when im depressed. i think some were just born to be paranoid. my only advice is logically work thorugh it - if its a look somebody gave you which sparked a paranoid thought, about say, being disliked - keep that in mind..then next time YOU give someone that look, you'll probably realise it was thoughts inside your head about YOU that caused it. why'd you tell your parents?

[walk_alone2202]

Because there's no one else there for me. My sister moved out about 3 years ago, so I've had no one else to talk to. I've always been paranoid. Even when someone doesn't give me 'the look', it's always been there. When people whisper I'll just think, "I bet they're talking about me," and most of the time I'm right.
Another reason why I told my parents is because they caught me cutting. They asked me why and I told them that I felt depressed. They said that any other time I felt that way I should see them... so I did...

[silver_queen]

Hey... I don't know what year you are in now, but you could always arrange an appointment with your doctor. Since your parents think it is just a phase, perhaps you will get more support if your doctor confirms there is something more to it than teen angst. Sometimes parents attribute real depression to that because they don't want to see that there is something truly wrong... maybe. Hope this helps you some anyway.

[adieuolivaw]

WALK ALONE: Please go to your primary physician and ask for help. Tell him/her that your parents don't recognize how serious your feelings are. Because some antidepressant medications take weeks to help --- ask him/her if there is one of the "old" type meds that you can use while you are waiting, because they tend to take effect almost right away. Ask to get right in, instead of having to wait. Don't be shy about saying that you feel it's an emergency.

Also, if you feel okay about doing it, speak to a school counselor. Sometimes they can be very comforting.

I'm very glad that you posted to us. Many of us have felt this way. We understand. Sending you good thoughts. I can promise you it won't always be like this. Sorry it's so rough for you right now.



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[walk_alone2202]

I'd like to thank people for their help and advice. Things are tough, but I'll try and work through it. I hope things get better for everyone else. I wish I knew someone in real life that felt the way I do. Sometimes I wish I could talk to something other than a computer screen.

xXx

[satansgetawaydriver]

why are you right most the time??? like i dunno how to put this euphemistically, but are you physically grotesque? no offense if you are - but i dont think you are...and if you are't, it means that nobody is talking about you..(unless you're super attractive, and the girls are whispering about you) and what did the old anti-depressants do then??????

[walk_alone2202]

Because people always seem to find some kind of fault about me. No, I'm not physically grotesque and I'm not super attractive. I'll get a pic of me up on this thing soon, maybe. I've never taken anti-depressants because my parents have never thought they would help. Gotta go now. Dad's moaning... xXx

[satansgetawaydriver]

they help if you believe they will

[_Fly]

Dear Walk_Alone --

Please do everything you can to consult with a physician. My parents were very old-fashioned and strict, so I understand how challenging it can be to get parents to listen.

I think that it is very important that you acknowledge your feelings -- even if your parents do not -- and get help.

(((((((((Walk_Alone)))))))

Please do not feel so alone and come back here as often as you need to.

[colors]

Well a lot of us feel that way about talking to a real person rather than a post. However, we are all very real, and care about what your going thru. We also have the advantage of being around almost 24/7.

I found people last night online until 3:00 A.M. (when I finally tired out).

Another advantage is that you are not alone here at this site. Whatever is bothering you, you find lots of support from people who are going thru the same type of thing.

Hope you will follow everyones advise and have a therapist or doctor help you too. They are really very important and supportive people to talk to.

I hope you will continute to post and speak out here.


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[alliecat]

It's not right but it's not unheard of either. There are ways to get rid of that feeling. Please go to a dr. immediately and be completly honest.

[SpazKatt]

*hugs* I think it is wrong of your parents to say it's just a phase and you'll grow out of it! You need help! I encourage you to find another adult you trust and tell them how you feel and help them get you help *hugs* best of wishes and be safe!