hiding out

I just spent like 30 minutes "hiding out" in the bathroom at my new home
(aka my in-law's house... if you don't know about it, you can read about that whole situation here)

I feel so "little"... and so... so... I don't know...

eek! *hugs* no fun
I read your other post... I'm so sorry you have to be in that situation. Is it likely that between you and your husband you'll be able to start making money for rent again soon? Is there any other spot you can go? What do you do during the day - can you get away from the house on a regular basis? sounds like it's not the place to be *hugs*
hang in there, maybe bring something "fun" to do into the bathroom? Do you ike to read? anything?

If you want you can hang out in my bathroom--it needs cleaned. Out out out of the house is what you need to do. Go to the library, go to Borders, go to the animal shelter, go to a car dealer and test drive cars just for the heck of it! Anything to get you out of the house for a little bit. I know your situation, but when you say hiding out, are just avoiding confrontation? (At least their not like my mom, who would say "why were you in the bathroom so long? What were you doing? It's not normal to be in there so long. Your sister has never spent 30 minutes in the bathroom. Do you need to see a doctor?) Point is, sweety, the only reason you should be hiding out in the bathroom is if you and your husband are taking a shower together!! Of course, I bet you could get some sleep in there since you aren't sleeping well on the couch! Do something for you--all those things are free (you don't even have to pay for the gas when you test drive!) and will just get you on your own for a bit. (If nothing else, hope you at least smiled! )

*agrees with cantstopcrying*
Inever would have thought of testdriving cars, i dunno if that's in your area xD

I tend to hide away inside rather than venturing out - outside there's more of a chance things will affect you in a positive way, most of the time

The reason I was in there so long was because I was... well... hiding... having some "alone time"...
and I also... did something... well... stupid... while I was in there and gave into some really bad urges,
so a few minutes of the time was taken up by cleaning up and, hiding evidence, etc.

Manda honey, . I'm so sorry that you felt that bad. Please either take a deep breath and talk to them or escape out of the house. Which ever you're comfortable with, but don't hurt you. You are too precious to do that to.

*cries* thank you soooo much Marci... you're words mean the world to me

You're welcome. I mean it, now you need to believe it!

((((((((((((((( manda86 )))))))))))))))))

I can't do this... I need to go hide... and other things... again

Go hide out if you need to, but the other things you need to are: tell yourself you are great, tell yourself you worthwhile, tell yourself that the bad times will not last forever, tell yourself that you are struggling right now but are strong, tell yourself that the other thing you want to do will not--will not--make things better, tell yourself that you are worth more than hurting your body, tell yourself you love yourself. Those are the other things you need to do, sweety.

(((((((((((((( manda86 )))))))))))
I agree with cantstopcrying, I am sending you many hugs.

*agrees with cantstopcrying

I hide alot - way too much but it's ok here and there
Try to escape and hide outside
You deserve more than a bathroom hideaway