[Junerain]

life seems to be a story..one with no answers..

.........It's always something..it feels like it's slipping away from underneath me..everything seems to go wrong and I don't fit in wiht this world..

One thing about me is I need to be very, very, busy with lots and lots of drama..I've been without a full time job for a long time now and it's making me jump out of my skin..had 2 interviews last week and today they both told me "NO..."

But what I want to say is I just don't feel 'me..' anymore. The tears are streaming down now..when I lived with children and cared for them it was all clear that was 'me..' and then I was asked to leave and these kids called me mom how could I leave my own kids?

I'm not being coherent because I'm sick of being coherent maybe this world is wrong to always be undramatic and coherent.

I need a workplace to feel whole!! I always have!! I cannot go on.

And people always say I shouldn't need others to feel whole...yet when I'm in something really dramatic I always feel perfect!! I am telling you I DO need drama and others to feel whole.

I dont know who junerain is anymore.

alot of my identify is tied up with working. i understand how you feel. i'm sorry that you're having such a hard time now. and this is the perfect place to post. there are tons of really good people here and the moderators and the administrator are great! keep posting. talking about it helps.
tell me about the children, if you want to........pat

[Wants2Fly]

Hi Junerain -- I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad. One's identity and self-worth certainly are linked to working.

Perhaps you can find other things to value yourself for. I've had periods of unemployment on and off over the years. In fact, I'm more unemployed than 'ployed right now. It has helped me to see myself as a more multi-dimensional person, even though the growth has hurt like heck.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Junerain)))))))))))))))))))))

the pot of gold? you mean THIS pot of gold?! oh ya, uh... sorry, i stole it. here, you can have it back now.

[Isolated_Guy]

Junerian, you mentioned something I've been having an issue with as far as being told you don't need others to feel whole. I have trouble understanding that one. I've been told "You don't need anybody else, just yourself." If that were the case, people wouldn't be making friends or looking for love. We'd all just be content going about life alone and we know that's anything but the way it is.