[jrae]

i haven't been on here in about two months. i try not to think about my situation because all it does is just make me cry and get more frustrated. and i hate feeling that way cuz i can't control my thoughts...

i was suppose to see my doctor the week before thanksgiving, but my mom 'talked' me out of going. she doesn't understand, which makes her say stupid things. then the stupid thoughts get in my mind and screw it all up. i wanted to go see the doc and in under twelve hours, it all changed... i haven't cried like that night in a long time.....

nothing seems to work - i'm tried of fighting - the strength isn't there any more... so i just sit at home and try not to think about my horrible situ! i'm trying to keep myself alive and all my parents can to is say things like: you should get a job, you need to sleep like normal people, you can't live here forever, if you don't know how you feel then who does...

i need to go get some love and comfort from my cats now...

[Taonuviel]

i totally understand... my mom was like that with therapy. sounds like you're an adult? seek out therapy and support groups, community mental health services. they can help you deal with this stuff and find some direction, despite your family's unwillingness to understand.

[nightbird]

yes, good post Tao...

jrae, nice to see you again! Sorry about your situation.

The more independant you can get from the parents, the more positive things may turn out, yes?

Good luck and I know that you will get through this... maybe meeting people who are in same-like situations, through a group, will help you strengthen up and rely more on yourself about you feel you may need, than the thoughts of your parents, who naturally experience denial anyway.

Keep posting... it will sort itself out.

xoxo

Peace and encouragement to You,
night