[internettie]

It's so hard when I'm depressed to get into the holidays. Today though I decided to do some decorating and listen to some Christmas music. I did the decorating because I want my husband to know that I am happy with our life even if I'm not always happy with my own. So, I made some paper chains, paper snowflakes and a 'tree' that I put the kids ornaments on (construction paper). It looks happier in here now. And I've even been able to get a few things done around the house. I just wish I could feel happy and joyous. I don't feel much of anything really. Maybe a little Christmas shopping will help (no overspending - we are on a budget). What will really help is my husband getting home from work. I don't like being alone all day. At least he'll come home to a 'happier' house today.

[Tumnus]

Originally Posted by internettie

I don't feel much of anything really. Maybe a little Christmas shopping will help (no overspending - we are on a budget). What will really help is my husband getting home from work. I don't like being alone all day. At least he'll come home to a 'happier' house today.

I'm right there with you on the not feeling part. But I applaud your effort in getting creative and making an effort at some holiday cheer, even if you can't feel it yourself. Is there a friend who can come over and help?

[stefano]

Well done!

[kebsfroggy]

I think it's great you did some decorating for Christmas. For some reason (I have absolutely no idea why) no matter how down I would decorate a little for Christmas. Sometimes no lights on the outside and only a small display inside but something. I don't know that it made me feel better, it just needed to be done.

[gimmeice]

Good job to you for trying, I know this year I am more into the holidays then in past years because I have been putting a lot of effort into it. Yesterday after I saw how cute toe socks are thanks to ariesmars picture album here, I even purchased some holiday toe socks, which seemed to improve my mood some.

[turquoisesea]

yay!
Even that touch of Christmas really means something. You talk like it's not much, that you should be doing more. But you're fine.
Myself, I've not done much at all. The important thing, I think for you might be just to be there with your loved ones.

You mentioned that you wanted to show your husband that you're happy with your life together, even if you aren't always happy with yours.
That really touched me. I know exactly how you feel. It's hard for my bf because I have those same feelings

Anyways, what I would say, is don't try to force feelings, they will come.
It sounds like you love your husband. You love your kids.

Why does Christmas have to be just joy? You feel love.
Christmas is also about giving. You did those little things, that is a gift that means so much especially how you are feeling. You're giving yourself to the people you love. That is a HUGE thing.

Happy holidays internettie, I think your Christmas spirit is fine. You are giving what you can, and congratz on the tree you made and everything

[internettie]

((((( everyone )))))

Thank you all for the encouragement. My husband came in the house after work and said "Wow! It looks so Christmas-y in here!". That made me feel good. We even watched a sappy Christmas movie on Lifetime Network. Tomorrow I'm going to do some or all of my Christmas shopping for my husband. Guess I'll go write out some Christmas cards.

I wish you all a happy holiday season. Do just one little thing if you can to celebrate the season. It's helped me some. Maybe it will help you too. Let me know if you do something. I'd like to hear the stories.

Christmas socks! That sounds like fun. Maybe I'll get myself a pair tomorrow. I should dig out my Christmas earrings too. Anything to evoke some warm feelings.

[turquoisesea]

YAY *hugs*

[internettie]

Today I felt really down because all the decorating is done and I got all the shopping done for my husband. Now I feel like there's nothing left to do. Sometimes I think I just don't get the Christmas "season". So much build up for just one day and usually not even a whole day. I wanted to decorate and shop because that's what everyone else does and it seems to make them happy. Doesn't work for me though. Last year we didn't really celebrate Christmas and I think I was happier. I'm mad at myself for buying into all of this, thinking it would somehow bring me joy. Argh! At least it makes my husband feel good. I think it's because he sees me getting involved and doing something besides sleeping, eating or watching TV. Oh and I went WAY OVER the budget buying stocking stuffers for my husband (that's all we're getting for each other is stocking stuffers). So I'll have him get less for me, which is okay because I don't really want or need anything (besides maybe some chocolate lol).

[skeeweeaka]

Originally Posted by internettie

Today I felt really down because all the decorating is done and I got all the shopping done for my husband. Now I feel like there's nothing left to do. Sometimes I think I just don't get the Christmas "season". So much build up for just one day and usually not even a whole day. I wanted to decorate and shop because that's what everyone else does and it seems to make them happy. Doesn't work for me though. Last year we didn't really celebrate Christmas and I think I was happier. I'm mad at myself for buying into all of this, thinking it would somehow bring me joy. Argh! At least it makes my husband feel good. I think it's because he sees me getting involved and doing something besides sleeping, eating or watching TV. Oh and I went WAY OVER the budget buying stocking stuffers for my husband (that's all we're getting for each other is stocking stuffers). So I'll have him get less for me, which is okay because I don't really want or need anything (besides maybe some chocolate lol).

I've been feeling the same way and need to get into the holiday spirit myself. Congrats to you for doing that! I'm planning on doing it this coming weekend with my dd...putting on some music and forcing myself to be a little festive... Guess I'll just have to fake it til I make it! Happy Holidays!

TJ

[Artsywoman45]

I don't have any family and I broke up with my boyfriend, so it is hard for me. I try to remain positive by writing and decorating my place with little things. One thing that makes me happy is buying presents for my Cat Zelda and taking pictures of her with her Xmas decorations. My birthday is also Friday and I will try to celebrate in some way. The key is doing good things for yourself that make you feel better.