[kalebrain]

Hi,

I am 29 years old and have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I took Lexapro for many years but when Lexapro started to flatten me out the doctor put me on Wellbutrin to compensate. I couldn't stand it and stopped the drugs. I was fine for a while. I could put myself in check and was not panicky. But the last two months have been horrible for me (besides my mood, I broke up with my boyfriend of over 5 years, feel in love with someone who did not have the same feelings at all and have had a major job/living situation change). I have lost 15 lbs (which is not all bad) I cannot sleep and my panic and anxiety is terrible. My friends actually started to worry.I started back on Lexapro and added Sonata then Temazepan to sleep and it has not helped. Last night after the worst panic attack of my life my doctor switched me to Cymbalta, Klonopin and Ambian. I have a need now to be around safe things, like my family (you know it is getting bad when you want to hang out with them!) and ex. A confident loner, I now can't stand being by myself and wish my brain would just stop churning.
I come from a tree of mental illness; depression, schizophrenia, bipolar, Narcissistic Personality, I could go on and on. I just want to have someone tell me it is going to be okay. I know no one can.

Thats all. I actually feel a bit better writing all this.

[Taonuviel]

welcome. this is a great place to share stuff, hope you like it and your med search goes well.

[Ascension]

Welcome to PC and I am sorry to hear about your recent recurrence with depression. Glad you felt comfortable enough to reach out for help and that you have decided to get back on medications and therapy. If you need us, we are here. Be good to yourself in the meantime and use all the resources you can as you need them.

[MINIME]

I just wanted to welcome you and tell you that this place is a great place.

[turquoisesea]

*hugs*
I can't tell you you're going to be ok, but I CAN tell you there are people who have gotten better. We have to look upon their examples with hope. And realize that the very illness we suffer stops us from seeing our hope.

And... sometimes it helps to just rant out the feelings

Welcome to pc
Loads of hugs
~turquoisesea

[Greg77733]

Hello and welcome. I have found this place to be very welcomeing and warm. I hope you do. Your depression will get better if you work hard at it and when you really feel like crap do something good for you. Take care and be safe,

[cf2009]

I'm 34 and feel the exact same way! I hate it. I stopped my meds for awhile too and felt ok for 2 months. Now I'm miserable 24 7.

Originally Posted by kalebrain

Hi,

I am 29 years old and have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder. I took Lexapro for many years but when Lexapro started to flatten me out the doctor put me on Wellbutrin to compensate. I couldn't stand it and stopped the drugs. I was fine for a while. I could put myself in check and was not panicky. But the last two months have been horrible for me (besides my mood, I broke up with my boyfriend of over 5 years, feel in love with someone who did not have the same feelings at all and have had a major job/living situation change). I have lost 15 lbs (which is not all bad) I cannot sleep and my panic and anxiety is terrible. My friends actually started to worry.I started back on Lexapro and added Sonata then Temazepan to sleep and it has not helped. Last night after the worst panic attack of my life my doctor switched me to Cymbalta, Klonopin and Ambian. I have a need now to be around safe things, like my family (you know it is getting bad when you want to hang out with them!) and ex. A confident loner, I now can't stand being by myself and wish my brain would just stop churning.
I come from a tree of mental illness; depression, schizophrenia, bipolar, Narcissistic Personality, I could go on and on. I just want to have someone tell me it is going to be okay. I know no one can.

Thats all. I actually feel a bit better writing all this.

[Fuzzybear]

Welcome to PC, you've found a great place. Please keep posting and sharing

[mmm424]

I hope you get well really soon! meds take a while to start working i am sure you would know this by now.. i hope cymbalta works for you!
I have taken Lexapro, Zoloft, Remeron so feel free to msg me if you have questions about these three meds! btw... i just joined today also