[littleyellowspider]

Hi, I am new to this site. I came here because I really feel like I have no one to talk to, I feel so lonely and sad and I just don't know what to do anymore.
I guess I'll just say a little about myself. I am 19 years old and have been taking medication for depression since I was 14, I struggled a lot with anorexia as well as cutting but have been in therapy for a couple years and these things have improved a lot but lately I feel I am slipping back in to some anorexic behaviors and have cut several times since starting college this fall.
I feel so sad and so incredibly alone and I hate myself so much. I hate looking in the mirror when I get ready in the morning or seeing photos of myself, I feel so incredibly worthless, like I can't do anything. I don't feel like anything I do is ever any good and I often think I should have never been born. I used to really enjoy art, now it makes me so sad to do it because I just feel like I am horrible at it and why try. I feel like I don't fit in anywhere, since starting college I haven't really made any friends. I joined a sorority but whenever I go to meetings I feel so out of place, like I am an outsider intruding on everything. All the other new members fit right in to the sorority and made many friends but I don't connect with anyone and I have no one in the sorority or anywhere else on campus who I can talk to or just have fun with. I want to change so much about myself. Every day is the same and I have nothing to look forward to and nothing that makes me happy. I feel so inferior to everyone and I feel so stupid for even writing on this board because I feel like there are so many people who are in such worse situations then me and I shouldn't even be complaining or feeling sad and my problems are just stupid. I don't even know how to explain how I feel right now but I feel everything is pointless and I am so incredibly worthless and I want to just curl up in a ball and disappear. I guess I just need someone to talk to. I just don't really know what to do.

[Cthomas]

Originally Posted by littleyellowspider

Hi, I am new to this site. I came here because I really feel like I have no one to talk to, I feel so lonely and sad and I just don't know what to do anymore.
I guess I'll just say a little about myself. I am 19 years old and have been taking medication for depression since I was 14, I struggled a lot with anorexia as well as cutting but have been in therapy for a couple years and these things have improved a lot but lately I feel I am slipping back in to some anorexic behaviors and have cut several times since starting college this fall.
I feel so sad and so incredibly alone and I hate myself so much. I hate looking in the mirror when I get ready in the morning or seeing photos of myself, I feel so incredibly worthless, like I can't do anything. I don't feel like anything I do is ever any good and I often think I should have never been born. I used to really enjoy art, now it makes me so sad to do it because I just feel like I am horrible at it and why try. I feel like I don't fit in anywhere, since starting college I haven't really made any friends. I joined a sorority but whenever I go to meetings I feel so out of place, like I am an outsider intruding on everything. All the other new members fit right in to the sorority and made many friends but I don't connect with anyone and I have no one in the sorority or anywhere else on campus who I can talk to or just have fun with. I want to change so much about myself. Every day is the same and I have nothing to look forward to and nothing that makes me happy. I feel so inferior to everyone and I feel so stupid for even writing on this board because I feel like there are so many people who are in such worse situations then me and I shouldn't even be complaining or feeling sad and my problems are just stupid. I don't even know how to explain how I feel right now but I feel everything is pointless and I am so incredibly worthless and I want to just curl up in a ball and disappear. I guess I just need someone to talk to. I just don't really know what to do.

First of all, welcome to pc! Good to have you here! There is no degree of pain or depression. We all have depression in various degrees, that does not mean you are more depressed than i am, etc etc. You are needed, and loved here. Im sorry that I just caught this post. But I do hope to see you around more often.

Thank you for joining out close knit group

Sorry I dont have advise on eating disorders, just wanted to give you a warm welcome

Colleen

[Puffyprue]

Originally Posted by littleyellowspider

Hi, I am new to this site. I came here because I really feel like I have no one to talk to, I feel so lonely and sad and I just don't know what to do anymore.
I guess I'll just say a little about myself. I am 19 years old and have been taking medication for depression since I was 14, I struggled a lot with anorexia as well as cutting but have been in therapy for a couple years and these things have improved a lot but lately I feel I am slipping back in to some anorexic behaviors and have cut several times since starting college this fall.
I feel so sad and so incredibly alone and I hate myself so much. I hate looking in the mirror when I get ready in the morning or seeing photos of myself, I feel so incredibly worthless, like I can't do anything. I don't feel like anything I do is ever any good and I often think I should have never been born. I used to really enjoy art, now it makes me so sad to do it because I just feel like I am horrible at it and why try. I feel like I don't fit in anywhere, since starting college I haven't really made any friends. I joined a sorority but whenever I go to meetings I feel so out of place, like I am an outsider intruding on everything. All the other new members fit right in to the sorority and made many friends but I don't connect with anyone and I have no one in the sorority or anywhere else on campus who I can talk to or just have fun with. I want to change so much about myself. Every day is the same and I have nothing to look forward to and nothing that makes me happy. I feel so inferior to everyone and I feel so stupid for even writing on this board because I feel like there are so many people who are in such worse situations then me and I shouldn't even be complaining or feeling sad and my problems are just stupid. I don't even know how to explain how I feel right now but I feel everything is pointless and I am so incredibly worthless and I want to just curl up in a ball and disappear. I guess I just need someone to talk to. I just don't really know what to do.

i know how that feel too....most of the times i think i dont know what should i do well depression make us cant even think...i am so sorry you feel this way..right now i just can offer huge hugs for you and welcome to pc

[littleyellowspider]

Thank you for the welcomes, this seems like a really good site