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Jul 27, 2009, 09:52 AM
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The medicine I was on was causing me to have involuntary facial tics. So, my new pdoc took me off it and put me on something else. I can tell the difference now and it’s not good. I will give it some more time and hope that is all it needs and will start working as well as the old one did.
I have no life. I am consumed by my illnesses. I ruminate and obsess constantly. And I feel like I have been lying about my symptoms to doctors for 25 years. I feel I should stop taking my meds because I don’t deserve them and don’t really need them. But everyone else feels differently. My mom and my best friend and all my treaters all think I am sick and need meds. It is very distressing to have these thoughts and I am sure adds to my depression. I try to tell myself that i am not a liar, but i just keep having the thoughts. Also, I just moved here last September and left all my routines and structure behind and now I have nothing to do. I am working on that though. I am applying for 2 different volunteer jobs. But all I want to do is sleep (peacefully). The nightmares went away with the old med and now they are slowly coming back. I miss my old pdoc. I am gaining weight because of another med I’m on--an ssri AND Social Security is currently deciding whether to formally review my disability status. If I lose my health insurance, I am in a big jam. My meds cost about $850 a month, not to mention therapy and pdoc appointments’ costs. And if I get physically sick, I am just screwed.
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Jul 27, 2009, 09:54 AM
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Jul 27, 2009, 10:32 AM
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(((((((((((((( Berries )))))))))))))))
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Jul 27, 2009, 11:55 AM
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External sources of worry...
Internal sources of worry... Worried about worrying... May you have many moments of beauty to overmatch your worries, and refreshing rest to bear them lightly. Berries!
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Jul 27, 2009, 12:32 PM
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(((((Berries)))))
I know exactly what you are going through, I really feel for you and hope you will soon feel better
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Jul 27, 2009, 04:34 PM
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((((((Berries)))))) so sorry to hear that you have so much on your plate. Know that we are here for you at PC.. Hugs for your day..
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Jul 27, 2009, 05:19 PM
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I often manage to convince myself that I'm not really sick too. That is the depression talking -- it's such a good liar, it can even convince you that it's not there!  Trust your doctors, they know what they're doing and they wouldn't prescribe you anything you didn't need. I'm sorry there's so much anxiety and stress in your life right now. I hope things start looking up soon.
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Jul 28, 2009, 02:35 AM
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(((((((((((((((Berries)))))))))))))))) Hope you are feeling better today.
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Jul 28, 2009, 03:07 PM
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I wish I were religious, then I could simply say "Give it to God." But I'm not, so all I can do is try and reassure you that you a very strong woman and you will find a way through this.
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