[Ltr2Hermione]

I'm tired of being alone and empty. I'm tired of trying to lose weight and getting nowhere (even after having lost about a whole person). I'm tired of the cold. I'm tired of being in bed - but too tired to stay out of it.

I'm tired of nasty, shallow people.. tired of not being good enough, but too tired to try to be good enough.............. the effort is a nothing more than a lesson in futility.

Tired of being sober.

Tired of sun coming up.. but tired of being awake when it's still dark.. still quiet... at least the light coming in the windows keeps me company (athough unwelcomed).

pfffffffffffffft

[pegasus]

One of those days!

Hugs (((((((( Ltr2Hermione ))))))))))

[trevorzero]

It sounds like a really miserable day. I hope the Smiling Fairy of Happiness will visit you in your dreams tonight. (No, I did not make her up.)

[turquoisesea]

((((((((((((Hermione)))))))))))))))))))

Shallow people. No fun.
Sometimes people are shallow because they feel they have to be good enough. Be yourself. Don't try to be something you're not. That contributes to the shalow feeling. The more "real" you are to others, the more you'll attract less shallow people. It'll take time but, it's worth a try.

sending many hugs, hope you feel better

[Ltr2Hermione]

Originally Posted by turquoisesea

((((((((((((Hermione)))))))))))))))))))

Shallow people. No fun.
Sometimes people are shallow because they feel they have to be good enough. Be yourself. Don't try to be something you're not. That contributes to the shalow feeling. The more "real" you are to others, the more you'll attract less shallow people. It'll take time but, it's worth a try.

sending many hugs, hope you feel better

I'm not shallow. I can't be something I'm not. I am what I am... I'm just getting sick of being judged because I'm not like someone else.

Whatever.. doesn't matter............

[turquoisesea]

You don't have to be like others. I know it's hard, because I'm like that. I"m wierd, different and it really is a burnden to carry. To know that you're not alone. There ARE people who will accept you as you are.

sending hugs

[Ltr2Hermione]

Originally Posted by turquoisesea

You don't have to be like others. I know it's hard, because I'm like that. I"m wierd, different and it really is a burnden to carry. To know that you're not alone. There ARE people who will accept you as you are.

sending hugs

TY..

In the interim.. guess it's best to stay alone all the time.

[turquoisesea]

I'm not sure about that, if you stay alone all the time you never get human interaction which is an important part of mental health. Even if it's just 1-2 people that you can actually relate to. It's ok to be a loner. It really is. But you DO need one or two people.

[Fuzzybear]

[Ltr2Hermione]

Originally Posted by turquoisesea

I'm not sure about that, if you stay alone all the time you never get human interaction which is an important part of mental health. Even if it's just 1-2 people that you can actually relate to. It's ok to be a loner. It really is. But you DO need one or two people.

Yea.. I see my therapist once a week. I tried the "getting involved" thing.. I can't handle the gossip and the judgements. I can't be part of it, and I don't have the energy to fight - and not just about me, but to have to listen to the rants just dripping with disdain for other folks takes more energy than I'm willing to give.

Been 2.5 years now.......s'ok.. not crying as much today.. 2 outbursts.. it'll pass.. ty.

[turquoisesea]

((((((((((((((hermione))))))))))))))))

it's hard to fight sometimes.
From the harsh words about others, sometimes, a break. Sometimes, fight. Sometimes let the words wash over you and pretend they are nothing. Maybe a mix of these, so that you can handle it. I dunno. I have trouble with it myself. sometimes it seems all people can do is talk other people down