Dealing...

I'm just coming out of the most severe depression that I've been in...well, in many years. Coming out of it until today, that is.

David is sick and now I'm getting it as well. I have no one to help me, and it's thrown me right back to ground zero. I don't understand why. I was doing pretty well with steadily coming out of it, and in one day, it's changed.

I hope it doesn't last? It could be because I've not been able to put the baby down long enuf to even dress and comb my hair decently. It could be that knowing I'm getting sick and there's no one who can/will help is a reminder of alot of yuck.

I will come out of this. I just pray it's soon that I do. I refuse to put myself down for this as it will add to the depression. I've had so many adjustments to deal with in the last six months...with very little break.

I have to remember...1) I've done this before and come out on the other side. 2) I can depend on no one here IRL (except hubby and t to a degree and don't have alot of access to either) but myself (that way I won't be let down and sink deeper). 3) I have to keep telling myself that I'm good (cause i don't "feel" that way right now).

I will make it past this...one moment at a time. I have survived for a reason...it's that simple to me sometimes, because sometimes it has to be.

thank you for listening,

....so sorry to hear you are dealing with so much right now.....hang in there.."this too shall pass....".......feel better soon....

Wow...you are more positive in a depressed state...than I am most days. (((((kimmydawn))))) I'm sorry you aren't feeling well.

And nothing is worse than a sick baby. Poor little guy. You can do this!

I'm torn though...on one hand, I think it isn't good that you don't feel you can depend on anyone IRL....on the other hand, I think its good that you've realized this and can try to minimize your hurt. I've come to that realization myself....and it's not exactly a good feeling. I'm hoping you find some help...from someone!

I am thinking of you and sending you strength. If you need anything...let me know. I'd be happy to help. Maybe make some "sick priorities"...if the house gets neglected, that's ok!

(((((kd)))))

and never forget:

I'm sorry you are having a hard time. Just concentrate on your priorities right now meaning you and your little angel. Forget about the rest. It would be much better if you could get some help but I understand that one.

I hope it gets better soon.((((((Kimmydawn))))))))))

nightdream

Hi Kimmydawn --

This summer I did a bit of reading about depression. As I understand it, it's not a sloping line upward on a graph, every day getting better.

It's more like a graph where the line goes up, zigs down, goes up a bit, zigs down -- do the general progress is upward but there are days that aren't so good.

So take heart. This is a difficult time for you. Who wouldn't be depressed with a sick infant to care for?

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i'm so sad you're falling ill as well! could your husband take care of little man for a while in the times he's home to help you rest?

Depression sucks, we all know that. But you've been doing a great job of coming out of it, and one day of feeling depressed isn't a massive setback. Sometimes just having an illness causes a feeling of depression. I agree with Wants2Fly, that recovery from depression isn't a chart of increasing happiness, but a series of highs and lows. You've recovered from it once, and you can do it again. Besides, you have all us supporting you here.

I'll second what 1day said: And don't you forget it!

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Hope you feel better soon.

~ Silver

Kimmydawn, I'm sorry you're having to deal with so much, including a sick child when you're depressed. I can't even imagine doing that. Please take care of the little one and yourself. I agree with 1day. Yesterday I felt ok, today, I'm really feeling down. It is a series of ups and downs like a graph. Hope you're feeling better soon. (((((((((((KimmyDawn)))))))

I'm also going to agree

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I am so sorry you and little man are sick! I hope you guys feel better soon. Sending you hot vegetable soup thoughts (Course not chicken soup thoughts, I am a vegan! ) and a soft teddybear thought.

You are so strong and so good kimmy, and I know how tough it is. But, you can do it, you will make it. My thoughts are with you.

Take care my friend and know we care.

Oh Kimmy, so sorry the little guy is ill and you right behind him. Wish I could hold him for you. You are right, it does pass. He will grow and his needs will change and you will feel healthy again. Good luck sweet one.

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feel better soon
Angie

thank you so much (((((((((((((((((((((( everyone ))))))))))))))))))))))

baby is well today! he's a much happier, healthier little man i feel pretty crappy today legs are like logs, temp, chest congested and hurt all over. ugh. i'm glad little man's feeling better for a variety of reasons

thank you so much for support, wishes, and soup depression is better...virus is not.

love to all,

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extra hugs lol. I so was hoping you'd be feeling better today, and I am so sorry you're not . At least little man is better though, but now it'll be tiring for you having to look after him when you're ill! At least your depression is better, that's some relief.

ty (((((((((((((((((((((((( silver )))))))))))))))))))))))))))

he's with his mamaw until this evening and then hubby will be home to help. is a good thing. i feel too weak to pick him up. hopefully, i'll be feeling better tomorrow.

see ya soon,

kd

I hope you feel better soon hon. I am sending you bearhugs and more soup
I am so happy baby is better!

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thank you (((((((((((((((( fuzzy ))))))))))))))))))

(((((KIMMY))))

I'm sorry your feeling poopy. I think it's great that your staying positive during this difficult time.
You will make it through this
Your strong
You have support in places you probably never thought too look.
We are here for you
Stay positve
Stay cool
Take care of you

More hugs ((((((((((((KIMMY))))))))))))))))

Feel better soon sweety

Jen

ty ((((((((((((((((((( jen ))))))))))))))))))))

i'm feeling stronger as the evening goes on think i'll be feeling much better tomorrow...fever almost gone as well. NOW....daughter has it her ears are hurting her pretty badly so i may have to get her to dr. i thought it was just fluid from the virus. however, they're hurting to touch...that's infected ears. she wants to wait until tomorrow to see how she feels then. we'll see...
thank you again!

Hugs to Kimmy!

I wish I had some wonderful words of wisdom, but just remember to hang in there!

Sending many blessings your way...

Jennifer

Rest and ginger ale K? Be well dearie.

ty so much y'all! i'm just a hanging in there

you're one of my heroines........i know you can do it....xoxox

Hi Kimmy, I hope you are feeling better soon, and your daughter, as well. I also suffer with bouts of depression. I find it usually happens out of the blue. (Hence, the nickname, the blues..)Stress always sets it off for me. I realize you have had alot lately with the illnesses at home. Hope things level out for you soon. I enjoy reading your helpful posts to everyone. Take Care, Trish

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ty so much! yes, my depressions are usually situational. sometimes they can lift as soon as the situation is resolved. other times, a situation will trigger something somewhere and the depression is here for months...like this last one.

i'm feeling better tonite and i hope daughter is going to do ok as well.

again, thank you

i thought everything was going well. baby's fever gone and he seemed to be feeling better...quite whiny and weak but to be expected for sure. also, last nite i was feeling better. yayay, it's almost over! NOT!

last nite, when the baby came home, he was coughing a deep "tight and chesty cough" (red flag), the he woke up this a.m. with fever of 102.4 again i immediately scheduled a dr's appt. i took him and dr said that he has no sign of bacterial infection, but did prescribe him something to make his breathing and cough not so tight. poor little thing. well, while rushing to take him to dr, i had to walk him up a few flights of stairs. i "blacked out" for a second and thought i was going to pass out. i got thru the dr's appt. and came home feeling like someone had sucked all of my energy out threw my feet. took temp, and mine's back! damned virus has a one-two punch! ugh ugh ugh.

hopefully we'll both be better tomorrow. my mother is keeping him for a short time this afternoon so i can nap and hubby will be home this weekend. thank God for weekend right now.

can i party my @ss off when this is COMPLETELY over (and i don't party, but i'm sure considering it)? lol.

i had to cancel t today (which i desperately needed ) as well. this has just been a SUCKY week.

but, all in all, i'm in good spirits. hahaha.

thanks everyone so much for caring about me and mine. i love you all! it's helped me so much.