[Balrog]

Recently due to pressure at work and other stuff that's going on I get angry and I'm not talking just pi**ed I'm talking full on Rage.
There has been twice recently where the red mist nearly fully decended and it was with great difficulty that I managed to keep it together.
I had to go and sit in the bathroom at work to cool down there have been many changes at my work and the constant pressure to produce figures is getting to me big style.
Any suggestions on how to pan this out because I need my job otherwise I'd walk but trying to keep the lid on it is wearing me down.

[leacon]

Do you have some kind of counseling at work? When I faced a similar situation, I went to the counselor at work and it helped a lot. If you do not have one at work, you may want to see someone outside of work. This type of pressure/rage/anxiety is bound to come out either in the workplace or else as a worsening depression. Either way you will jeopardize your job without some way to resolve this, and the best way to resolve this is through some counseling.
Good Luck

[justfloating]

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I don't really have anything to add, but I agree with leacon 100%. Getting some counselling on this might really help you out. I'm sorry you've been feeling so pressured lately and I hope it lets up soon. Good luck and take care!

[Perna]

Originally Posted by Balrog

There has been twice recently where the red mist nearly fully descended and it was with great difficulty that I managed to keep it together.

But it didn't fully descend and you did keep it together! Been there and done that :-) Had trouble just a couple days ago (and I'm "cured"). Recognize your strengths, Balrog! 30 years ago I use to have to grip my one hand with my other behind my back to keep from smashing my fist down someone's throat. Don't be afraid of yourself; you're wonderfully strong and just like you're that strong that you can control that amount of rage? YOU ARE CAPABLE OF THAT MUCH LOVE AND LOYALTY! It's a bit of a cliché, but like the Bible Psalmist says, we are "fearfully and wonderfully made".

[Rohag]

Hi, Balrog! Rage is a fearful thing, to me at least.

I think some people try to identify their specific rage-triggers and then mentally rehearse rational, effective responses for each trigger.

If it's not too invasive or complicated a question, what are the “figures” you are being constantly pressured to produce?

[Balrog]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hi, Balrog! Rage is a fearful thing, to me at least.

I think some people try to identify their specific rage-triggers and then mentally rehearse rational, effective responses for each trigger.

If it's not too invasive or complicated a question, what are the “figures” you are being constantly pressured to produce?

The company I work for has recently started new working practices
to work what is known as "Lean Processing" where the job is timed and you have an hourly target to meet.
Don't hit your hourly target and your line manager is there wanting to know why...pressure 24/7
Assembly line working practices in an office enviroment

[Rohag]

Balrog, I searched the “Lean Processing” phrase and it powerfully reminded me of why I'm such a Dilbert fan. My first impression is that “Lean Processing” is essentially a reincarnation/repackaging of Zero Defects, Total Quality Management, Six Sigma, and every other industry efficiency fad from the past few decades.

Personally, I think some of the ideas at the core of this efficiency philosophy may be sound. BUT...management usually adopts the vocabulary of the philosophy as window dressing and plows ahead with their own defective understanding of the ideas. The result, far from making things more efficient, is often the introduction of painful, time-wasting procedures designed to prove productivity rather than increase actual productivity. Further, I suspect some of your superiors' jobs depend on them not understanding what they're trying to implement.

I can think of few things more soul-crushing than what you're going through.

My suggestion: try a two-pronged approach, psychological and professional. You have the rage to deal with (frankly, I think rage is a perfectly rational reaction to your situation as I imagine it based on the information you've given). Work is the second target. Is there any way you can turn the tables on your supervisors? Can you exploit a knowledge of their version of “Lean Processing” to shift the pressure off yourself and onto them? An analytical “Memo of Record” from someone on the “line” written to the right person could transform your professional situation. Yes, it's risky. But, how much risk is there in doing nothing?

Anyway, those are the thoughts of someone who has yet to recover from a bureaucratically crushed soul.