[Aljuan81183]

Man, i thought i had been through it all by now. but now my heart is broken into a million pieces...the girl i was after is now dating one of my close friends in which i spoke to him about her for months now. not only that, he was gay (obviously not) all of a sudden they start acting wierd and dissapearing like I wouldn't notice. instead of just coming out with it they lied about it and hid it. He took everything i said and used it for himself now i'm stuck with anger and hate, plus i'm still alone. i have no family, no other friends, no one to turn to for immediate help. i feel like i have no purpose anymore. why even try. it'll just end up with me getting the shaft like always. i'm so sick of everyone around me being happy all the time and getting what they want. i just want to be loved also. someone to share emotions with that really cares...
Who does one deal with this. esp when the girl you want is your roommate on top of everything else?!?

[sunflower55]

I'm sorry this happened to you. I had a similar thing happen to me when I was younger. My roomate began dating a guy she knew I really liked. It hurts - bad.

But, you do have to move on. Get a new roomate; move if you have to. It's not worth living in the pain.

Start to act "as if" it doesn't bother you until it doesn't because you've gained new activities, behaviors and therefore, new colleagues to fill your time. Begin by taking care of yourself physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually each and every day. You will see yourself feeling more whole once more.

I got through this pain. In fact, I haven't thought of it for years until I read your post. It brought a sad reminisent smile to my face. I understand completely. But, it was ages ago, and I've lived two lives since then. You will too, and more. I promise.

Peace!

[yutzman]

Till now I would say that you let your emotions and feelings 'flow out'. Which had effected all those around you with 'touch' and 'emotion', whether positive or negative....Outward bound, away from your energy....This effected the relationships that you seeked and tried to nurture........
Now, try to let your feelings 'flow in'. Accept the energy....Hold fast, need to know, only accept what you know is proven......Harsh?... Yes...but what have you been dealt???? in the past..Time to think back and reassess on the life you think cannot be salvaged......You are wrong.......You've only just started!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!