i hate my body right now.

I just lost control of my hand picking up my cup and now i have spilt tea all over my bed. I hate my stupid body. At least I didn't spill the hot tea on myself this time.
I feel like a child and it makes me cry. if I'm like this at 31, what will I be like when I'm old? Do I even want to be old? No.

And no "normal" knows how this syndrome truely feels for me. I just want to scream and beat it into someone "THIS IS WHAT I DEAL WITH EVERY DAY AND YOU WANT ME TO JUST GRIN AND BEAR IT???"

Im sorry its not fair.
No nobody should ask u to grin and bear it.

I am sorry you are struggling. As an artist it must be especially hard. I know it is no where near the same but the meds I am on make me shake sometimes and as a photographer it just crushes the core of me. I am sorry that you have to live with this. Be true to yourself, honor and express your feelings (in safe ways). Like rapidcycler said no one should ask you to grin and bear it.

Amolass sorry to hear your having a rough day. I still wet my pants trip over knock things over Im 49 I just try and think of good things, I know its hard when your told to grin and bear it , I know myself as long as Im still alive and kicking Im going to annoy the crap out of everyone ( i mean in a good way) Try not to get to down in the dumps because its to hard to get out of them sometimes. I keep teasing my grandkids saying who is going to change Pas nappy when he gets a bit older. Thimking of you.

Bless your heart. I'm so sorry you're suffering from this syndrome. I can only imagine how frustrating this must be for you. I'm a chronic pain patient, and my spine is deteriorating, plus I've had sciatica for 26 years ~ and I walk like I'm 99yrs old. I've gotten so unsteady the last couple of years that my idiot cat loves to play tag" with me, and he just about knocks me flat!! LOL He loves me but personally I think that's a ruse and he really is trying to kill me! LOL

Seriously tho, I will keep you in my prayers! Please take care of YOU. God bless. (((hugs))) Lee

Am totally with you Guys... I have generalized osteoarthritis and its probably in every joint. I had back surgery last year and a hip replacement. I need the other hip done and both knees and back is very bad..severe arthritis in back. I cannot walk without the aid of a walker. I am putting off surgery because I just don't want to be in the operating room for now. I also know that replacing my joints may not fiix my problem of not being able to walk because my back is so bad. I have a lot of pain but I try and "walk through it." The trouble is although my head can walk through it, my pain is so bad I get heavy sweats from it. Anyone have that? My Dr. said it was my meds and my pain.

This is a good place here to share... I just found this this morning. I usually try and stay positive but it can be difficult...Sometimes I think people perceive me as having no pain because I don't talk about it. Sometimes that bothers me because they expect more then I really can deliver. Maybe, maybe I should share more that I am in pain all the time....then would they listen or care?..I don't know!!

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