[i_got_the_blues]

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Hiya,

Always loved fantasy, usually high – by which I mean w/ princesses, dragons etc. not ME being high – not that I *need to* be w/ my imagination. I write it, too.
If you were to see a tiny, anxious-looking woman in a wheelchair w/ hair that looks like a Dulux chart & mushrooms/pentagrams/dragonflies hanging from her ears, you'd be looking @ me.

Anyway, as well as the wheelchair I've got the odd behavioural problem. I found this place looking for info re adults w/ imaginary friends. I’ve formed imaginary bonds [which I always knew were imaginary] w/ various musicians mostly [but there's a few characters too] all my life, who mostly changed as my tastes did – they were basically the same as their real-world equivalents, w/ the same names, but w/ a bit extra eg they had magic powers, used to shh/comfort me, teach me things, take away pain, tell me it's OK, I’m OK, they were w/ me, etc. Some talked in odd ways. Being decades older than I, when they disapproved of my behaviour they would tell me off. When in need I’d whisper their name[s] x3 in my head. Even wrote a song for one.

My fav books, films etc were -- & still are -- those w/ this sort of theme. One IF has been around me for *years*, who I am basically in love w/ – you can imagine how I felt when I met the real-world equivalent.......... my stopped & I nearly *bleeped* myself.

I dropped all this silliness when encouraged to by a well-meaning carer, but I was really miserable; said behavioural problems got 10x worse to the point of me lashing out physically & SHing; my hair even fell out. I call what happened my “black cloud”.

When I hit 30 y/o I became a care home resident & though I’m looked after surprisingly well, most other residents are even worse off than I am, as in totally unable to speak.

I dreamed of said musicians a few times, who have given me advice. My family are really close, so it's not as if I didn't have people to support me in real life – I’m sure they'd know if/when the Cloud came back. I'm told I cheer people up & I'm funny, kind to people etc. I doubt my flatmates, as I prefer to refer to them – will ever be good friends [I’ve been here 1yr & there's still only a handful I get much back from & I’d choose to spend time w/] but they don't seem to avoid me, either.

Am I just a fantasy geek/is there something really wrong??[FONT]

[purplegiraffe1]

I too have imaginary friends!!!!! I even have my own Imaginary language and island as well! I am also married in my Imaginary world too! I don't see anything wrong with what you've described... but then again, im also a pretty weird gal. lol.