[demonicAngel]

ok-i have learned in vile ways to stop asking the question-can s*i! get any worse.though i did that-i still get that answer,all the damn time!as i am suffering to death slowly-in poverty-i got a surprise visit from-now former-therapist who's been with our family since 2009.i could tell something wasn't right.she was kinda choked up,angry(yet tried to hold it back but i'm to good on picking that junk up)and sad.she told me that the clinic (state ran places suck!)was auditing all patient files again-they have been cutting people off of services,cutting back on staff,etc and apparently on record some place i have early onset dementia.i went to a university about 2 months ago for testing to rule that out-which was a damn joke!!!!!the "testing" was a general q&a the 1st visit,the second was just what ive done at so many other places since 2004-they show you a fat boring book of stupid pics,then ya point to which ya remember and they have you count numbers in various was in your head which that i can't do at all.that was it oh and what was like when ya see on tv people getting a field sober test to see how slobbered they are-yeah.then that was it.never heard crap back.but i did fill out forms to have tests&results sent to my pcp and the mental place i once went to.still 2 months no nothing.i have been dropped by the place because now that it's on record someplace of a dementia diagnosis-i am no longer just a mental matter-more md matter.my councilor was so pissed off she went to the top to fight it but hey it's the state.she said what's being done to you is beyond wrong and she couldn't stop apologizing.but i told her it's not her fault at all,i meant it,and she gave me her personal cell and said please keep in touch.because it's a state ran facility i can just request to see documents though i can't get copies at all.i also got online access (i am on 2 separate health networks-idk)and the rancid,horrid,i found i got diagnosed with yet never told are severe scary not curable deterioration conditions and some things i know i do not have ****!!!!!conditions that require not only pain management but specialized care.what the hell??????????i have been in faces for years.it's sick.its abusive,its blatant neglect yet i can't get anyone to help me.i've tried everything so please don't.i will not suffer for their amusement.no-i have family though small,but no help advocating for me or even looking things up-emailing begging for help/advice-everyone has quietly hidden themselves.i get a call now & then but i keep it short or i go off.one way or another-this is going to end.

[Travelinglady]

I am so sorry this thing has happened, demonicAngel! I would be really mad, too. I hope everything will work out okay.

[demonicAngel]

Thank you