[romanjames2004]

Ok....soo...I don't know if this should go here but...

I was originaly diganosed with depression last July. I decided that I was actually bipolar becasue I had manic episodes and all the symptoms that matched up wiht bipolar. I did not tell my doctor everything becasue I was new to the whole psycho-therapy thing. Well, the last 5 or 6 months I have thought alot about myself and discoverd that the different manic episodes are some times really short. I have different personalities. I made up different names for each of them and they have different desires and have different aspirations. However, I am concious during each of them. Its like I am the same person, just acting a certain way. One is roman James who I have used since I crated this site and that side of me likes psychology, fashion, and likes to read GQ and Details magazine. He has an english accent. I have my Allistair Vanderbuilt/ Madison James. I use both for him. He talks in a british accent as well. He wants to be rich and famous and have the life of a celebrity. My most "Out" side of me is Brody. He is a young clubber who is really promiscuis and fells like he needs to be in highschool and is sort of a bad boy at night but a perfectionist during the day. And finaly there is me. Alex. I am a shy, curious, 18 year old who wants nothing for every one to be happy and to just be successful. This is like my depressive personality, the one I dont like to be that much.

Like I said I am concious during each change I just like to give them each a name and be different people. ... Maybe I am just wierd or confused lol.

Thanks' Alex

[Elysium]

Hey Alex,

Everybody has different Ego States within themselves. Ego States are like when you find yourself behaving differently at a party, than you would at work or school. You are still you, your behavior is just different.

DID is on the extreme end of the continuum of dissociation and from what I've learned is that these Ego States with DID are very separated into their own personality states. They can have their own names and own value and belief systems, even their own physical issues.

It is interesting that your parts have names and different things they like to do and even different dialects. Some questions I have...? Do you have a history of trauma in your childhood? And, have these parts been noticeable (not necessarily identifiable) throughout your life, or is this just something that started occurring? DID is a coping mechanism that children create to help themselves survive severe trauma.

There are other disorders where you can have more defined Ego States as well, such as Borderline Personality Disorder and PTSD.

My suggestion for you would be to refrain from attempting to diagnose yourself with anything and bring ALL of your experiences up with your therapist. They are in a better position to help you explore your experiences and help you to find out what they mean and where they come from.

Don't know if this helps, but I hope it did a little bit. Take care, and keep us posted if you like. We're all here for you!!

Talk with you later!!

[romanjames2004]

Thanks' for the info. I have just been pulling my hair out becasue i notice different changes and try to diagnose my sefl becasue i havnt been able to see a T. I mean my child hood involved screaming, death, and recentley I experiance my dad leaving and finding out I had a brother I never met who is 28 and a whole bunch of other stuff. But thanks for the help.

Alex/Allistair/ Roman lol

Originally Posted by Elysium3006

Hey Alex,

Everybody has different Ego States within themselves. Ego States are like when you find yourself behaving differently at a party, than you would at work or school. You are still you, your behavior is just different.

DID is on the extreme end of the continuum of dissociation and from what I've learned is that these Ego States with DID are very separated into their own personality states. They can have their own names and own value and belief systems, even their own physical issues.

It is interesting that your parts have names and different things they like to do and even different dialects. Some questions I have...? Do you have a history of trauma in your childhood? And, have these parts been noticeable (not necessarily identifiable) throughout your life, or is this just something that started occurring? DID is a coping mechanism that children create to help themselves survive severe trauma.

There are other disorders where you can have more defined Ego States as well, such as Borderline Personality Disorder and PTSD.

My suggestion for you would be to refrain from attempting to diagnose yourself with anything and bring ALL of your experiences up with your therapist. They are in a better position to help you explore your experiences and help you to find out what they mean and where they come from.

Don't know if this helps, but I hope it did a little bit. Take care, and keep us posted if you like. We're all here for you!!

Talk with you later!!

[Elysium]

No prob!!

I've been in therapy for 5 years and have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and complex ptsd. I had always had different behaviors and mannerisms with some amnesia and time loss throughout my childhood and into adulthood. A couple months ago, my alters started introducing themselves to me. I thought I was going crazy for sure!! I didn't want to tell my T because I was afraid she'd lock me in the closet and call for the people in the white coats. I started doing a little research on my own and then I made a short video for my T and asked her to watch it after our session. I was so scared, I couldn't even talk to her about it. So I kind of self diagnosed in a way, but then I had it verified by my doctors.

It is scary, but you're doing a good thing seeking help. Just hang in there and keep coming to PC for support. We'll be here for you!!

Take care!!

[Dancer13]

I too have feeling lately of thinking i may have DID. My mother was diagnosed with it. I was molested at age 4, my father was an alchholic, he had an inappropriate relationship with me, my parents got divorced, my mom introduced me to a son she gave away at birth that I had no idea about, my mom died right after I got married, then the brother I had just met died, My son was born with a realy bad birth defect, We moved to a foreign country and started a new job, my brother that I grew up with called me and told me he was gay, and I just had an affair on my husband of 10 years! I feel like I am about to go crazy. To have an affair is so unlike me. I really felt like I was a totally different person. I had a tummy tuck a few months ago, and I feel like it spurred on this other personality. My husband doesn't believe me, because I so good at living the rest of my life and hiding it. He thinks someone that is so messed up as I have told himI feel, would not be able to fool everyone into thinking I am ok. I think someone with DID or MPD, would easily be able to do this. Right? I was taking effexor for anxiety. I just started it when we moved here 8 months ago. I feel like that had a part in my affair too. I felt like I could do anything after I started taking the medicine. Like I was untouchable. Like I would be able to pull anything off. It was scary. What do you all think? I'm just really confused and trying to figure out what to do. I need to go to therapy I know, but the therapist I found saw me twice and then went on vacation for 3 weeks. I'm just trying to make it through the next 3 weeks. And save my marriage!!! I don't want to have anymore affairs. I love my husband. I need him to understand this and I need to get the proper help.

[Hunny]

Hi, Roman James:

You said: "Like I said I am concious during each change I just like to give them each a name and be different people. ... Maybe I am just wierd or confused"

My question would be, whoever typed this may know and be conscious but are each of the others aware of each other?

You said: "I mean my child hood involved screaming, death, and recentley I experiance my dad leaving and finding out I had a brother I never met who is 28 and a whole bunch of other stuff."

This seems to indicate that you are in a stressful position at the present time.

Is it possible to obtain a T?

Hoping for the best for you, in the meantime.

Dancer:

It's good you could come here and chat. Living with a close relation with DID must surely make you consider the possibility of having it too combined with the other events of your life.

Here's hoping you can hang out here at PC for the next three weeks or so, reading the articles and forums until your T returns.

H.

[romanjames2004]

Sooo... I have been in the hospitol with my grandma and I am curentley in the ER with her just waiting for her transportation to a room and I realised that each of my "alters", if that is what they are, has a different laugh. One has a mean and sidious cackle. One has a laguh that is obnoxious and loud. and they other has a rather cute giggle or mumbly kind of laugh. I just thought about it and relized I had different laughs and though it would be interesting to state it lol

thanks for listening.

Roman James