[Monty_girl]

Rachel talks too much. She told T about how we see things and hear ppl yelling at us from the outside that aint there. And that we think ppl follow us. why she have to open her mouth? what am I going to do? can't talk to him about that stuff. I don't want to. that stuff you don't talk about.

[Elysium]

Monty.....

I know all about stuff you don't talk about!! I have that stuff too. The important thing to remember is that Rachel is doing her best to support you and help you grow and heal. The only way out of dispair is to walk right through it and face the fear and pain. You've been there before and you made it out alive...hurt, traumatized, but alive. With T's help, you will be able to conquer the stuff you don't talk about, but only if you talk about it!!

Keeping it in will just keep you chained to it. I know it's scary, but you have to let it out to process it and get better.

I'm here for you, Monty!! We're all here for you!!

[Jewels]

mayb she wants u all ta b safe an shes scared an needs the comfort a T brings...try ta see her as the link between u and ur T an unless her tellin brings way too much stress...let her tell what she thinks...u can always tell the T what is really goin on after...I think that Rachel is awfully brave even tellin that much...heres a bear for u all ta hold onto..

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[multipixie9]

monty_girl,

i can see how it would be scary for you if rachel tells things to T. how did T act when rachel told? did anything bad happen to you after she told? most of us who write here were programmed not to tell and punished cruelly if we told anything to anyone. we were actually programmed to su*****out before we told anyone what was happening to us.

the abusers programming children this way to protect themselves from being caught and punished for the evil abuse they commit. there's a saying that says we are as sick as our secrets. keeping the secrets of the bad things they did to us and the secrets of how it made us feel is a terrible burden. it makes our pain worse over time and it wears us down until it is hard to live. (i know this from experience, i'm not just blowing smoke. they made us believe we did hideous things, terrible and evil things. it was very difficult to ever tell, but when we finally did tell our T we discovered the only crimes were the ones they committed against us. they were evil and guilty, not us. i would tell you the whole thing but it is very triggery and i don't want to hurt anyone. i just know that after i told i was able to heal and i lost the shame and fear they bound me up with. i reclaimed the truth about myself which is that i was a child and they forced me into horrible things and they were monsters, not me!)

rachel is trying to help herself and you too. she's not just trying to blurt out things. she just can't keep on the way it has been for so long. you all deserve to find some peace and healing and we hope you will find it soon. hugs from us if you want them,

leslie and her pixies