fantasy

when we were younger, there were several things that we'd do to feel happy and safe...hide in a huge bush and make pretend soup (we could see everything going on around but no one could see us), walk in the woods and pretend we were in a far away land...a nice land, go the the water and watch it moving, go to the colored sand mountains and pretend we were queen/king of the hill...the world was ours at those times. the best thing that felt so good was...we would go to a place behind the houses where there was a swingset and a bunch of trees. there was no grass...just dirt and pine needles. one day we were moving the pine needles around with foot and making a picture on the ground. we went home and got the broom to sweep them more easily. often we would make the outline of a home...it was our home...just ours. we would make our livingroom, kitchen, bathroom and a play room for everyone...no bedrooms. it was our own safe house.

i want to do that again...somewhere where everyone will feel safe and have fun. that was happy. that was good.

that sounds wonderful. what a lovely fantasy to hold in your heart. thank you for sharing that kd.

(( kd))
That sounds so wonderfull. What a nice thought.

I hope you can do that again. Recapture the happy and good.

Take special care.

place

Our special place was in the woods. A place no one dared to go. In a tree we made our home the safe place away from all.

thank you ((((((((((( zh )))))))))))) those times were the light in the dark, ya know? sometimes i like to remember those...just because.

thank you ((((((((((((((((((( place )))))))))))))))))))))

with yesterday being so warm and outside walking with the baby in the trees, i thought of these wonderful memories. it's spring!

((((((((((((((((( larks ))))))))))))))))))))))) if ok. i'm glad you were able to go there...AND that no one knew you were there.

be safe,

oh that made me remember there was an island in the lake we lived across the raod from. It was only as big as a bedroom but we thought then it was HUGE and we had a rope for swinging off and landing in the water and we patrolled the boarders and pretending no one else ever knew it was there. We set out to navigate and find it a million times. Wow- I never been back to that town I wonder if its still there or being this is NJ maybe they built condos on it.
thanks for causing me to remember that!

Mama had a big old Lilac Bush on the corner of the house it was so full I used to crawl under it and we played there all day, no one else knew we were there but mama and she would put lemonade and graham crackers on the porch railing just for us girls, she always knew about us and kept us her secretand kept us safe
Angie

(((((((((((((((((((( kathyanita )))))))))))))))))))))) i'm so glad you could remember that. often times, with DID, if we have memories at all, they're not good. i want to pull out some good ones...today's a good, safe day we can go to our special places in our minds and feel so good. i've been really scared/nervous lately and that brings me so much calm....no on else in the whole entire world. wasn't that just awesome???

love,

((((((((((((((((((( angie )))))))))))))))))))))) so someone else had a special bush? how cool is that? we used to hide in this huge bush....actually when i got inside i realized that it was two bushes grown together. we would go in there and use the twigs, leaves, even bugs to make make pretend soup. shelley would sing songs and all was good! AHHHHHHHHHH! what a beautiful, peaceful feeling!

kd

miss kd, you can mak huse out gras to. i no how do thats. and you can mak fodd wih the mud. i lik fidin the bunees in the woods to. k

miss lisa! that's sounds sooooooo fun. i hope you get to do that LOTS this year!!!!

how are you, sweetie? i haven't talked to you in a long time

i love you!

miss kd

sorry about the above post. I was trying to think and well. sorry

monty! no reason for sorry! please.

we love all of you.

It is nice to think 'bout the good things that come w/ DID. We tend to dwell on the bad stuff, not much else can get in. Plus for me, I'm not "allowed" to be happy. So I compromise. I can be content.
I remember having my people to talk to. We played board games & the like. My husband couldn't quite grasp how you can play games w/ 'yourself'. That was when I was severely dissociative. I miss it though. I miss being able to play games w/ my little ones inside. Now I'm mostly co-cons so I can 'see'. No fun playing cards when you know what the other one has in her hand!
This is a nice thread.
Love,
RhysMadison

TY KD, Love you too. Now I have my thoughts somewhat back together I can say what I wanted to say before. I think it's just great that you have those great memories. That's something so special to have. Nature and Love those memories and keep making special and new ones. It's never to late to be happy. Hey Kd Go to the park and fly a kite with little man. Make some good memories together.
for Loving me and all of mine. You mean the world to me and mine. Love You, Monty

(((((((((((((( monty )))))))))))))))))) me and little man flew a kite yesterday! a grover kite. he was excited for about 10 seconds...however, we flew it for about a half an hour! the children got so excited. i couldn't work it right so i was "told" how to. it was great! i got to watch internal children being so happy, and teaching me a thing or two

thank you again, miss monty.

kd

Kimmy, I had an invisable tree house that was high up and no one could see but me and safe people once we entered. In this home it was clean and neat and quiet. I could get food and sleep safe. There were real clothes to wear. Outfits, and mittens and boots too!!!!!!!!!!! I want to remember that place better