OMG, I've been working SO HARD on CSA stuff lately. I really really felt like I was making progress - big progress - and then someone said something in my thread on the PT board that completely triggered TEEN and now I feel like all progress has come to a halt. I AM SO FRUSTRATED. I had this feeling like "wow, I'm moving forward, I'm going to heal someday" and now there is no WAY teen is going to let me give T the letter I wrote. I'm afraid she's going to rip it up and I don't even have it on my computer and it will be gone.

I do NOT know how to make teen go away. No offense to teen...I know she is here to protect me, but I really think she overdoes it sometimes.

I don't know what to do and I'm scared. I have NO WAY of communicating with teen as far as I can tell. T can talk to her. I'm aware of her, but it's like...she's not aware of me? She won't listen to me? I don't know. I can't control her.

I can call T and ask him to leave her a message to let me do the work I need to do, but I've been so needy lately, I feel bad calling, and besides, I don't even know if teen will let me.

I'm upset.

[Eriksplus]

I'm very sorry you're upset, and I wish for the best...
I can be hard to control sometimes myself...
(Kay)Erik

[turquoisesea]

the progress you have made is not lost. There's just another bump in the road... but you've made it past all those others. keep going

[Fuzzybear]

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