It seems like I have this middle place, between "this part" and "that part". I usually am only aware of feeling like ONE person. I call myself "I".

But it seems like sometimes when I switch, I have this time in a middle place.

Today I went to T and I remember picking something up off of his desk that I like to hold on to - a little carved animal. Things were kind of far away, and I heard myself saying something like "WE don't want to do this" (therapy)...the next thing I clearly remember is driving in my car on the way home. Although I kind of think I left a phone message for T and saying "we" in the message, although I don't remember what else I said (I always leave him a message after session). I definitely remember feeling like I was "in between" selves - or like I was THIS grown up self and someone else at the same time.

Now I feel like just me again. But I wondered if anyone else has this feeling of being in a middle place sometimes??

[Luce]

Yes! And many times (particularly in therapy sessions) having a sense of not being anyone at all.

[multipixie9]

i've had so many different states of being i can't even rememer them all. some days are weirder than others. some days my mind is on a freaking merry-go-round. other days i feel stuck in dullsville with myself. and some days i'm chasing the white rabbit down the hole into never, never land.

look at it this way, you seldom get bored. sheesh.

leah/pixie

[Elysium]

Yes Tree....I've been there!!

Sometimes if I am stressed out, like after therapy, I will feel little inside and one alter will be "out" emotionally, while another is "out" doing the driving. So, not only have I felt in between but I've felt like two different parts at the same time.

You not alone.....

[Luce]

Elysium, right before I read your response here I was reading this on another website:

The authors propose a phase-specific understanding of the treatment of trauma survivors that respects the splits in the personality caused by traumatic events. An "apparently normal part of the personality" holds narrative memory and attempts to go on with daily life, using the ego functions of planning, exploring, and reasoning. At the same time, at least one and often several "emotional parts of the personality" remain stuck in an action pattern that was initiated at the time of trauma and was principally defensive in nature. The goal of treatment is a resolution of these structural splits in the personality and a more whole and flexibly functioning individual.

Rather apt, don't you think?!

Yes, I recognize this. It's like hearing, feeling - the other part of you - in a daze not being able to really do anything about it... It's like being there but then again not...
Even if I've sort of been there and heard or felt a lot... I hardly remember it at all the day after.

[Elysium]

Luce & Daynnight ~ I am so sorry to know that others have these similar/same type of experiences...this means that others have been hurt badly, just as I have.....but, this being said...it is quite a relief to hear you both (and others here) speak words that seem so internally familiar to me. Most of the time, I feel completely isolated from humanity. Then there are brief, fleeting moments like just now, where I really sense that I'm not alone and I feel you all.

I am sorry for your hurts....but thank you for helping me feel less alone!!

Good post Treehouse.....TY

[Fuzzybear]

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[Miracle1986]

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