question/rant

I'm thinking about going onto disability. I can't work more than 2 days a week without having severe dissociative spells. I was wondering what other people thought about being on disability for DID. I don't want to really go on disability, but I'm starting to feel like I don't really have another choice. At work I've been switching and am afraid that they will see me switching while I'm at work and fire me for it, but I enjoy work I'm just having a horrible time working ever since I officially got diagnosed as DID. I wish that I would just get better..... it's so hard being young and trying to decide if I want to apply for disability. Not to mention I don't know if my boyfriend and I are doing ok. He and I have been having spats lately. He's always taking care of me, but the other night he told me to get the hell out of his apartment, this is not the first time that he's said this. I don't know if i should stay with him, or if i should find my own apartment to live in. I don't have enough money to support myself since I'm only working like 2 days a week. Eugh.... I hate this. I want to feel ok being myself, but I honestly don't and wish that things would get better and easier, but I don't think they will.... I'm just so confused

Tig

I've been on SSI before. you don't have to stay on it. I have even thought about going on it again. sometimes you have to take care of yourself it is not something to be ashamed of. and yep the care giver is out. Ha HA. each time that i went through recall I had to sit down and find out what I needed to do to keep all of safe and whole. that is the only thing any of us can do. You know the list of pros and cons. Only you can decide what is safe and what is not good luck..

our logo for us if it did not make us depart the first time we should servive the second time. also we would not be remembering If we were not strong enough ( that one always made me mad with my foster mom but after all this time we find its true)

it always amased me the truer the saying the madder I got with her good luck and ou are not on you own. this has become my new hang out just for that very resion.