[wanttoheal]

now that things are somewhat calm outside, now I am falling apart. can't deal

[Mahali]

wanttoheal, Whats up? can you share more?

pm if you would like.

place

[wanttoheal]

son almost died. he is okay. he is bipolar. he is finally taking medicine. it's all good. and now we all feel like everything falling apart. everyone now scared when not scared before.

[Mahali]

wantto, Do you think maybe it is a reaction after the stress has let up some? You dissociate while the stressfull event is happening because you "have to" react "have to perform" and then afterwards there is what I call a "melt down" of sorts.

I am really glad that your son is ok and on meds. Can you take some time to be just for you?

Take care.

place

[kimmydawn]

what place said, wantto was what i said last nite. i believe that's EXACTLY what's going on. doesn't make it any easier but might answer the "why".

i'm still waiting for the storm to wash over me here, fore i know it's coming i've always done what you're doing right now. you probably have to, and just recognizing it with your increased awareness.

be safe, my friend.

kd

[silver_queen]

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[silver_queen]

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What a huge relief that son is now taking meds wantto! How stressful and scary for everyone in that situation. I know I'd be waiting for the shoe to drop with that much stress backlogged.

I know you've said how hard it is to trust in letting go. Practice and more practice is what it takes. You're getting there by even posting this and letting us know you are scared and you feel like you're falling apar.

I'm sure that a while back you wouldn't have even been able to share that with us. Look how far you've come!

Gentle hugs and lots of kindness for this next rough patch.
kindly,

[wanttoheal]

Thank you place. Yes, I think that is true. I guess I do better when things are in an uproar. At least I know how to react. And can stay in control.

I will be fine. Thank you for your replies. I really appreciate them.

[wanttoheal]

((((((((((((((((Kimmy))))))))))))))) I'm so sorry that you are waiting for that. I hope you are doing okay.

Increased awareness stinks lol.

Thank you for everything kimmy. You are an amazing friend.

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((((((silver)))))))))))))) thank you

[wanttoheal]

ty zh. Yes, I am so thankful he is taking his meds. It's making a difference that even he is noticing. thank you for your reply.

[RhysMadison]

Glad he's back on his meds. Wish meds were easier on us. Sometimes the side effects are worse than the illness it's trying to fix.
I can relate to being calm outside, then inside it's a mess. Sometimes I rather have a bunch of stress outside, makes it easier to "forget" & push down, brush aside, what I'm feeling inside. The "just don't want to deal" thing.
Big hugs!!
Love,
RM

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((RhysMadison)))))))))))))))))))))
Thank you for the big hugs. Yes, it's a lot easier to deal when there is crap going on isn't it. Then we know how to react, what to do. Thanks for your understanding and support.

[Mahali]

Hoping things are getting better and calming some.

((((((( Wanttoheal ))))))))

Take care.

place

[wanttoheal]

hi place. thank you. we've had some bumps but we're ok. thanks. (((((((((place))))))))

[Zorah]

We have a son who is schizophrenic, & I always cope ok during the crisises, always have, any kind of crisis. Its afterwards that gets you every time. It could be a reaction to the adrenalin leaving the body.
I wanted to post to you before to say you didn`t give your son bipolar disorder & we didn`t give ours schizophrenia. I bet we were all good mothers because mostly our own mothers were not. We`re sorry we couldn`t post earlier.
Take time to care for yourself. It should be nearly summer in your hemisphere, I always find summer easier than winter, so I hope that you do too.
Let time pass. (((wanttoheal))) PM me any time if you would like to.

[wanttoheal]

thank you ((((((dawntreader)))))))))))))
I'm sorry you are having stuff with your son. It's hard to see a child suffer. Thank you for supporting us.
son didn't take meds tonight . . . hope it's not starting over...

[Mahali]

(((((((( Wanttoheal )))))))))

I hope so too. Did he just refuse? My good thoughts are with you.

Take care.

[wanttoheal]

thanks (((((((((((Place))))))))))))))))
He finally took it, albeit 3 hours late. I am thankful. Thank you for your good thoughts.

[Monty_girl]

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I'm glad he took them. Fingers crossed that it goes smoothy tonight. I hope you are doing OK today. Just remember to stop and breath. TC

[wanttoheal]

thank you (((((((((((((((((((monty)))))))))))))))))))