[Amanda1960]

I have so much trouble in T because I keep switching around in there. Well, dont remember the discussion but we were just opening up about something when T started laughing. Then he makes some explaination that of course I dont hear (someone inside does tho, Im sure)then when he senses this frustration he askes for us to accept an apology from him. I called him later and said we need a break. He hasnt called back.

The problem is that everytime something goes any way that is uncomfortable for us in a session, we quit or cancel appointments. I really dont wanna break or quit, but parts of me is fed up. I dont wanna be a bad client either. He understands the DID thing but I'm afraid there is only so much crap from a client like me he can take.

Well, just felt the need to post this. Maybe someone else out there has dealt with this.

[Hunny]

maybe he still will call?

[Crew]

Hi Amanda,

Maybe looking for a new T would help. Starting and Stopping therapy is really hard on the body's system. Hopefully you can call your T and tell him what you understood him from saying or doing...

Unfortuanately switching and not remembering is very hard to handle yet by journaling and talking to your T even if it is writting it down helps us all out, in fact the things we don't want to say out loud, we email it to our T.

We all (ThaCrew) hopes you all can try and write him and tell him how you feel about him laughing and maybe making a contract to not stop therapy.

If you switching and not remembering this is the time you need a T.

Keep us all in touch...

Know were thinking about you............................ThaCrew

[possum220]

My p'doc said that I can cancel appointments only if I am sick. Otherwise I still have to front up. Most of the time when I really want to run away is the time that I need to sort out what I feel with him and have a discussion about what happened.

Its not easy. But we normally sort things out.

Try not to run away hun. I hope you can sort things out with your T.

[Hunny]

Amanda1960,

How are you doing, sweetheart? We spent a lot of years not able to speak either *sigh*. Just wondering if you are considering Crew's suggestions (you need not say). It's just that although I guess I didn't waste time and money with the other therapists...there isn't one thing that stands out except a build-up of anger and frustration. They probably were doing good for others somewhere...but if they never take the time to learn what good are they to me/us (meaning me).

[Amanda1960]

Thank you everybody. T did call me back but I had turned my phone off. He left message that he would try to call back which made me feel a feeling I dont think I ever felt before. Someone cared! The feeling only lasted a few minutes then the usual mistrust and avoidence feeling took back over. I am going to see T tomorrow and I have been journaling every day so I dont forget.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((( Amanda1960 ))))))))))))))

[WePow]

Honesty is the way to go. Stay honest with yourselves and honest with the situation.

[possum220]

I encourage you to stick with this one. He obviously does care, even though you may not feel like that is the case most of the time. Feelings can trick us.

I am glad you are seeing him soon and hope that you are able to continue with him....... and front up even when things seem very hard.