going forward...

It has been a nice break, working full time and having the holiday in between... so now it's time to get back to the truth of the hour and that is going to our weekly appointment again. Why we get this internal resistance when it's been so long, is beyond me...sort of...reaching out for someone to drag me there.

It is emotionally so much work. We wake up in the morning and we are still around so we will go forward and will be grateful but you know, it's just that, well, there is a wall of resistance each time we restart. We should not say this, as we are the lucky ones but a little boot in the you know what is necessary, a gentle one though. *sigh*

We are trying to remind ourself of all the reasons it's better on the other side of the memories...and it is. Will you send encouragement, if possible...we will promise to work hard for our healing and tell of those gains as we love to hear of yours too. Well, maybe the odd stumble too.

Our T told us we did really well last year, when we made some gains. Reviewing, he said we met PC people here in the last year and we were and weren't triggered. Maybe there have been some steps in the right direction because we learned a little about our own group of alters visiting in the chats here, sometimes with successful outcomes, sometimes not.

We learned some confidence writing about our condition so that we gained and carried some confidence out in the physical people world. We even got strength up to walk into rooms of OA (3 times already). Encouragement galore has come our way here. From climbing out of a traumatic place masked by depression, to receiving encouragement to continue to address, more deeply a child alter's wounds. You all have helped to keep me/us moving forward. I have identified some new places to work on by reading your posts and chatting with you all.

I have appreciated those who walked with us through those hard places we were in a year ago or even 6 months ago. Sometimes we want to stop coming we feel pretty good but then one more thing comes up that we know someone may have an answer to or that we can help with. It seems so much of the forces of darkness that have plagued us for so many years that sometimes the light makes us feels so good we think we're finished! Well, this resistance makes us know this is not true but I/we still fight it. We are old you think we'd know better. Don't be deceived even old people can still learn, lots!

Thanks again everyone of you for all your differences and for all your samenesses. We encouage you all to keep seeking your healing too, be it with a therapist or not. We are not creative for no reason. Thanks to you all and to PC .

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“Science without religion is lame.
Religion without science is blind.”
Albert Einstein

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We hope that you can go to your T with less resist. To be honest if we could find one has caring and has accepting as the one you have we would be there with bells on. The insights that you have shown me I know come from the positive influence of the T that you speak off. May you find the soft kick in the B*tt and a soft pat on your shoulder be encouragement enough to get your crew to your first appointment of the new year. God bless you wister in all things you choice to achieve .