[susierose]

Can you know and feel what your ater is doing when they are out? I seem
to have a time when im saying or doing something i wouldn't normally do
or say but am aware of it but cant stop it. In T for example... Im in
Therapy and my teen alter i call katrina, dosnt like the...
drama therapist and says things to her i would nev...er say....I am just
confused and feel like a fraud because i can control somtimes some of
my alters but also remember things.

[starrina]

ugh thhats called i think being co concious or something
sue aka starrina goes on about it
hey these a chick that runs a group here
tha crew why not go one day ya neva know what you might lern

by tomas

[anderson]

Yes tha sounds like it is the beging of being co- cons. with other parts. You are not a fraud cause it comes with different parts as they heal. We call this time sharing. just keep track of the emotions and content and let your T know what is happening. She may be able to help heal the part that is useing you as a door way to help from the outside world. We call that piggy back riding. It where a part learns to be safe outside alone. and is learning new slills.

[Elysium]

Starrina and Anderson are right.

It's called being co-conscious. This means that your alters can communicate with each other internally and that whoever is present can sense another alter trying to come through. Co-consciousness is different for everyone. In my system...most of us can communicate inside, but there are a couple others who don't hear us or know how to talk to us yet.

We like to look at it like....who's in our internal car at the moment. Like...after a T session as we drive home, our little Emily may be out emotionally (in the passenger's seat), but Angeleigh, one of our bigs, will be driving the car (in the driver's seat), and there may be one or two others who feel close by and are alert to what is going on (in the back seats).

So what you experience is pretty normal...it just happens at different times for different people. It can be a pain sometimes though.

Yesterday...T was working with Amber and Amber got mad and started to cry. She doesn't let herself cry in front of anybody...so she went back inside and Emily came out. T didn't realize it for a few minutes...but was like...."where'd Amber go?" LOL!! She's still learning the subtle differences in our voices and mannerisms. T and I both giggled over that.

You're doing okay!!!

[Hunny]

Susierose,

We didn't know the names for all these occurances either but it is happening all the time internally and now we can even stay on track with our conversations when in the company of singletons and not worry that who is speaking may not be who was originally there. We are able to keep track better.

We tend to relax ourselves a bit when we are here in DD forum because we can and we know people 'get us', even if we piggy back or time share or be coconscious. We call it practising!

Also, Elysium, we ABSOLUTELY love your car metaphor. It is true...sometimes our car is overcrowded we know that. LOL

Be encouraged Susierose.

[susierose]

I kinda understand myself more now. Think it dosnt help that my T dosnt know much about DID and that makes it hard. Thank you all so much (((((big hugs)))) to you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx