Little came out in front of aunt...

AtreyuFreak · Feb 11, 2010, 11:23 PM

So while I was at the grocery store with my aunt and uncle (just to get out of the house), a little came out. My aunt and uncle don't know I'm DID, so they probably just thought I was being funny or was just slap-happy tired. The little found a toy and carried it around with her, and talked with a lisp. The odd part is is that I was semi co-conscious; I remember this because the little/I looked in length at the liquor section, because I'm not allowed to look at liquor in the store with my mother. It wasn't that I was craving it or anything, it just makes me think. It's almost positive, because it makes me see how far I've come. (In case I'm not making sense, I was a bit of an alcoholic for a couple years). I'm not exactly sure what my aunt and uncle thought, but I'm sure they were a bit mystified--or more so my aunt, I don't know that my uncle noticed. I haven't switched to an alter that was that noticably different in front of them, or really any adults, specifically my family. I'm pretty sure she'll ask about it; what do I tell her???

(I'm a bit hesitant about telling her I'm DID, because she might tell my parents, and because she may think I'm a hypochondriac. As Odd Thomas so deftly stated, there's only so much a person can accept.)

Oh and I'm not sure that I know this little. She may be new; she may also be Haylie, who's been out once before. I don't know how old the little is, but she could read...then again, I don't know how old Haylie is. As strange and unsettling as it was to switch in such a public and obvious setting, it was kind of relieving as well. I almost felt (crazy as it sounds) that it proved that I was DID, at least to myself. I constantly doubt myself; when people constantly call you a hypochondriac, you start to doubt yourself. But this was so...sudden, strange, un...usual? Something about it told me that this was real...could that be because I was partially co-conscious? What a fantastic feeling! Also, since I've only had one little come out prior to this, I'm kinda glad that one felt safe enough to come out. I definitely feel safe with my aunt, and I feel that a lot could be accomplished through "reparenting"; that is, tonight my aunt gave my little the love, patience, acceptance, and gentle guidance that were denied during our childhood. This is PRICELESS!

Hunny · Feb 12, 2010, 01:38 AM

AtreyuFreak,

So glad you feel safe with your Aunt, enough to have a little come out. it's lovely to have someone you be safe with.

All the best to you in this journey.

Hunny

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Originally Posted by AtreyuFreak

So while I was at the grocery store with my aunt and uncle (just to get out of the house), a little came out. My aunt and uncle don't know I'm DID, so they probably just thought I was being funny or was just slap-happy tired. The little found a toy and carried it around with her, and talked with a lisp. The odd part is is that I was semi co-conscious; I remember this because the little/I looked in length at the liquor section, because I'm not allowed to look at liquor in the store with my mother. It wasn't that I was craving it or anything, it just makes me think. It's almost positive, because it makes me see how far I've come. (In case I'm not making sense, I was a bit of an alcoholic for a couple years). I'm not exactly sure what my aunt and uncle thought, but I'm sure they were a bit mystified--or more so my aunt, I don't know that my uncle noticed. I haven't switched to an alter that was that noticably different in front of them, or really any adults, specifically my family. I'm pretty sure she'll ask about it; what do I tell her???

(I'm a bit hesitant about telling her I'm DID, because she might tell my parents, and because she may think I'm a hypochondriac. As Odd Thomas so deftly stated, there's only so much a person can accept.)

Oh and I'm not sure that I know this little. She may be new; she may also be Haylie, who's been out once before. I don't know how old the little is, but she could read...then again, I don't know how old Haylie is. As strange and unsettling as it was to switch in such a public and obvious setting, it was kind of relieving as well. I almost felt (crazy as it sounds) that it proved that I was DID, at least to myself. I constantly doubt myself; when people constantly call you a hypochondriac, you start to doubt yourself. But this was so...sudden, strange, un...usual? Something about it told me that this was real...could that be because I was partially co-conscious? What a fantastic feeling! Also, since I've only had one little come out prior to this, I'm kinda glad that one felt safe enough to come out. I definitely feel safe with my aunt, and I feel that a lot could be accomplished through "reparenting"; that is, tonight my aunt gave my little the love, patience, acceptance, and gentle guidance that were denied during our childhood. This is PRICELESS!

WePow · Feb 12, 2010, 08:23 AM

Learning how to work with your alters or parts is a big part of the healling process.
There comes a time when we learn that our own mental health is more important than what others think about us. If you have the ability to stay co-conscious with the ones like this little, then let them come out and see the world. That is the only way we have to "grow up" those parts of us. They can learn and develop with our help.

anderson · Feb 12, 2010, 10:35 AM

We send you peace and the colors of the rainbow may your Auntie be the one to give you safe harber.

Miracle1986 · Feb 12, 2010, 09:59 PM

AtreyuFreak,
I think it's awesome that this happened.

As far as what to tell your aunt, maybe you can express to her your fear of her telling your mom and see what she says?
Maybe ask her to keep a secret?

Fox · Feb 14, 2010, 04:01 AM

aww {hugs the small part} Is this the same aunt you were hoping to move in with? If so maybe your small one is comfortable with her and wants to be with her too.