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anderson · Mar 06, 2010, 01:58 PM

The dalmations finely let us leave flagstaff for a little bit. It is so hard at time trying to keep alters safe and surcure when we only live out of our truck. The dalmation still believe that if we leaave all the way that the ones that had hurt us so bad before we got here will hurt us again. and yet we still got those that even though we are no longer a main part of our son life that at least want to be near him just to see him onec in awhile. The bigitory of those who have no iedal of what we go through. They not only take away the means in which I can surport my self and son but make sure no one will befriend us for their les of hate. WE thought we could go away and start ove but the truth is our heart has always been our sons welfare and care since we lost everything before we came out here. But we tried so hard to be whole and live a way that he would not be ashamed of us for but now thinks to TGC and those that do not know us for real but only by that which other talk about we are hurting inside. we just drove until we felt it was time to turn we are now camping by a river in a canyon. the first couple of nights where hard each group wanting to do their own thing but we finely calmed down when they all realised that the pain that we are in is what causing the division with in. we do love and accept each other we still may want to kick each other butt at times but to us we are family. We think of hersel walkers and how he had family and friends to surport him then I think of those here just like me wanting to heal and grow but outsides get to much self worth by keeping us down. They can not pound on their chest and say I told you so if those like us can make the break like hersel and have a live those of us with out money or resouces we have to work harder and fight dirter to get out of the valley of darkness. But when we get out the questoin is where do we belong if those that have gane so much power form our weekness refuse to allow toher to see us for our selfs instead of the comercial package that they want other to see us in. We have lost count of how many times we have made friends then others talk to them and now no one talks to us. we feel the pain of loneleness we feel the pain of being an out cast but how can we take back our power when no one really hears us. We are condemed to a life of loneleness not because we want to be alone but because of the very people that take homage of say I know her and I know what she does. Even If what they say we did was done out of fear of receiving less abuse it does not matter for what we did was choice life instead of death until the son born to this body was of age to take care of himself. Now that he is the main reason that unified us is gone. We are so much like the middle east in our souls. For they to had to live with a demon that controled them by death and vilance for how many years. Now our arragent public oppionions want the to choice a new geverment a new way of life after living all those years under the threat of death and abuse by those in power. The sad part is that we have our own demons here in the us that are not ashamed to use false information to gain control over other peoples life. It gives them the false God like complecs that gives no value to real life but of only of their own self gain. The drama in us is not that of who is in control but that of a soul that is tired of being hurt by outsiders that have no heart or feeling for that which is different we moved to be safe. what we did is lost all that gave us hope for a new beggin because no one wants to hear us speak our truth. When will we become a nation or world with out malice. the need to tear another apart just to gain self worth. The only place we know of that the being are above hurting each other to gain self worth is heaven. When we dream of peace it is what we find there not of the bigitory and hatered that has been alwowed to grow and trive in our churches in our communities. even in our schools. I am sorry guess we had a lot to get off our chest.

Miracle1986 · Mar 06, 2010, 03:41 PM

(((anderson)))
We are listening...

darkpurplesecrets · Mar 06, 2010, 11:57 PM

((((anderson))))

We are here for you and we hear you. Thank you for checking in. I am so sorry things are so hard right now. Know that we care and we love you all. Sending many gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

Hunny · Mar 07, 2010, 08:22 PM

Dear Anderson,

Thankfully you were able to get away and regroup. I agree with the others in that we are listening when we can get to a computer. You are a great Mom and that does tend to keep you grounded despite the infrequency these days of time with your son. Teenagers have a way of loving us but not wanting to walk down the mall with us. Hopefully you can help him sort that out when he sees you next.

People do care greatly for you here at PC and you are a gift to me and all of us here on this Forum.

(those gossip mongers are cruel and their lies will haunt them for sure! Give it time, as you say they will be repaid with what they extend to others.)

Please take gentle care for you as you do so beautifully

with all of us here.

Thank you for you.

Love,
Hunny

Quote:

Originally Posted by anderson

The dalmations finely let us leave flagstaff for a little bit. It is so hard at time trying to keep alters safe and surcure when we only live out of our truck. The dalmation still believe that if we leaave all the way that the ones that had hurt us so bad before we got here will hurt us again. and yet we still got those that even though we are no longer a main part of our son life that at least want to be near him just to see him onec in awhile. The bigitory of those who have no iedal of what we go through. They not only take away the means in which I can surport my self and son but make sure no one will befriend us for their les of hate. WE thought we could go away and start ove but the truth is our heart has always been our sons welfare and care since we lost everything before we came out here. But we tried so hard to be whole and live a way that he would not be ashamed of us for but now thinks to TGC and those that do not know us for real but only by that which other talk about we are hurting inside. we just drove until we felt it was time to turn we are now camping by a river in a canyon. the first couple of nights where hard each group wanting to do their own thing but we finely calmed down when they all realised that the pain that we are in is what causing the division with in. we do love and accept each other we still may want to kick each other butt at times but to us we are family. We think of hersel walkers and how he had family and friends to surport him then I think of those here just like me wanting to heal and grow but outsides get to much self worth by keeping us down. They can not pound on their chest and say I told you so if those like us can make the break like hersel and have a live those of us with out money or resouces we have to work harder and fight dirter to get out of the valley of darkness. But when we get out the questoin is where do we belong if those that have gane so much power form our weekness refuse to allow toher to see us for our selfs instead of the comercial package that they want other to see us in. We have lost count of how many times we have made friends then others talk to them and now no one talks to us. we feel the pain of loneleness we feel the pain of being an out cast but how can we take back our power when no one really hears us. We are condemed to a life of loneleness not because we want to be alone but because of the very people that take homage of say I know her and I know what she does. Even If what they say we did was done out of fear of receiving less abuse it does not matter for what we did was choice life instead of death until the son born to this body was of age to take care of himself. Now that he is the main reason that unified us is gone. We are so much like the middle east in our souls. For they to had to live with a demon that controled them by death and vilance for how many years. Now our arragent public oppionions want the to choice a new geverment a new way of life after living all those years under the threat of death and abuse by those in power. The sad part is that we have our own demons here in the us that are not ashamed to use false information to gain control over other peoples life. It gives them the false God like complecs that gives no value to real life but of only of their own self gain. The drama in us is not that of who is in control but that of a soul that is tired of being hurt by outsiders that have no heart or feeling for that which is different we moved to be safe. what we did is lost all that gave us hope for a new beggin because no one wants to hear us speak our truth. When will we become a nation or world with out malice. the need to tear another apart just to gain self worth. The only place we know of that the being are above hurting each other to gain self worth is heaven. When we dream of peace it is what we find there not of the bigitory and hatered that has been alwowed to grow and trive in our churches in our communities. even in our schools. I am sorry guess we had a lot to get off our chest.

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