[anderson]

You all do not have to read this one. We are letting go. Taken a spiritual laxative for the entire BS in our lives. We use to burn these but this time we are posting this to release to the universe in the 12 step way of doing things. We hope it does not trigger but if it does we do apologize for that fact. This will be a combo of thank you and how could you. But most of all to those here Thank you and safe hugs.
1. How could you? To the mental health here. If it had not been for you devotion to help heal life’s and helping those in need. We are looking at the past 10 years of our lives with both sadness and anger at the fact that those of you had my part toughly convinced that if I chose to stand up for my/our selves that you would take our son and give him to the very people that mad us who we are. To also back up those that where hurting us off the record was an all time low. I do say that I had the honor of looking at one of TGC workers and asking him where the public got most of their information and how the heck did we have any butt left after all the gossip going on around going on around about us. The look he gave us was priceless. …..
2. My sons’ foster mother, the job of a foster family is to rebuild the family not destroy that which you do not understand. To deliberately set up those that come to you for help for failure is so dark soulish. We do thank you for giving our son the time he needed to learn that even with all the cons living with us was worth it until the general community used gossip to segregate him from those in his age group and from us. We hope some day that you find peace with your own past so that you no longer feel the need to destroy the lives of others.
3. To the Boy Scout troops, thank you to those that helped my son to learn that is was safe to be around large groups of people and to give him the ability to be with other in fun sport. That weekend up in locket meadow healed him in a way that no mental health person could have done.
As to those that twisted the truth to chase him out of the troops. …… words can not express that which I/We feel towards you at this moment and to the past when he chose to quite. As to the ones that used my pass to force me into panic attacks we hope that which you wished for us comes back at you.
4. To the school system and our son, we fought the past 10 years for someone to understand that the bigotry with in the community was hurting our son. But also to get help to find someone to reach our son to apply himself at school. To our son that always answered “I don’t know what she talking about.” and those that were suppose to help us but just patted him on the back saying “It alright, we know she is just having a manic moment.” Now is the time that my son faced the consequences of his chooses. Our son is about to become a man now is the time for him to learn what it is really about with out the two of us riding interference.
5. A special thanks to one of my old bosses, The one who had two white shepherd dogs, Thank you for letting me have a female boss that did not hold who I am against me. We also are sorry for not being able to find a middle ground or holding our anger when those in middle management where not comfortable with us and pushed us out the door. We hope that when we vented that you understood that it was never at you but at those that hurt us.
Now to all the ones that was not comfortable working with someone that has DID/MPD. We would like to remind you that not all of us have information black out between parts. In fact a part of integration is being able to share information between parts. Tist tist for all the games played just to gain false power. We have said it before and we say it again we may have scares on our body and soul. But those that chose to hurt others for self gain. Your souls are as ugly as a pair of lungs that have been smoking for the past 20 years. We very humanly hope you choke on the entire BS that you brought into our live. Spiritually we hope you finely grow up. But which ever you do is your chose hee heee.
6. To the churches that gathered together to help run us out of town. We hope the Holy Spirit visits you and gives you a soul awakening. If not oh well we finely found a place for a time that we can attend and all my parts feel safe. Just for the record the King James version of the bible is also the first chose of reading material for those that abuse other with the false belief that they are serving the true God. It just amazes us how people can justify abuse under the disguise of serving the true God. May you all find the truth before you go before the one you clam that you are working for.
7. To the people that are in our lives that say that they are here to help us heal. We can only reflect on what Tiger Woods said in his public apology. It will not be on my words but in my actions that will show my change of heart. WE have listen to 3 years of words being told that we do not know the full story. Not even being protected from those that hurt us because you refuse to hear our pleas for help and protection. Now that we to are at the end of our rope and feed up with the way that we are being treated. It is time for us to treated the same way publicly as we are treated privately by those that say that they care for us. Either that or let us go and stop telling our parts that you are going to protect them from those of our past if you are not even willing to protect us from those that chose to hurt us now.
8. To all those here that have allowed all of my different parts to come to the surface and face the truth of our past. We can never thank those enough for saving this sinking ship of a body with all its inhabitants. Even to those that pushed our bottons but where finely able to safely set up bondres with out free of being harmed for doing so. Thank you.

[Hunny]

Anderson, we so feel the swirling waters of the rivers meeting here. The humanity and the letting go. Finding your words and fitting them to feelings of what happened and integrity of your own soul. Striving to care for self and son and trying to see the good and take the bad with a good conscious of feeding the white wolf.

Admiration comes to mind Anderson...putting anger to page in such a way that they truly will be punished in the pit...the breathe of life will be removed from them.

Your parts have saved your life Anderson. We thank each part for coming to be here.

You are our best wister and we thank you for being here.

Love,
Hunny