[writingwithink]

A few weeks back I started a thread that asked about folks experiencing "weird" things in therapy, like metaphysical or energy things. So bear with me here: This past session something really awesome, potentially weird, happened. I'd like to hear other folk's stories.

In my past, I've experienced a form of dissociating that allows me to enter a hypnotic-like state almost instantaneously. It usually happens when things feel too threatening or I can't seem to handle what's up on deck. I actually have embraced this ability as a "friend." Sometimes it happens by itself and sometimes I initiate the fading away (like when I'm on an airplane that's going through bad turbulence). I can almost always hear what's going on around me, but with a sense of being far away. It's happened in front of people and alone. I've never responded to voices calling to me from within the room; why would I? So last summer something else started happening while in this state; it's like I become someone else, someone very young who is unable to talk but can move hands, eyes, feet, etc. When this occurs, I'm pushed even farther away.

So this hypnotic state happened in my session this past Saturday; first time with this therapist. She was awesome. I could hear my T talking, and she was wanting to know if any parts had anything to say, or something like that. One of the voiceless parts started to emerge and took control of my hand. The T started to ask about the hand, calling out to whoever was moving it. (Looking back, I can't believe she understood what the hand movement represented. If there's any reason why one who is DD should see a DD specialist, this is it!) Anyway, at some point my T said something about accepting/feeling the energy from her and/or from another, very grounded (almost god-like), part. So I was stuck in this state, with a part controlling the hand and this awesome feeling of energy from both the T and this grounded part. It was like I was wrapped in this feeling of warmth from all sides. Since then, I've just been focusing on how to feel the energy of someone else. I've been practicing with my cat, and if I focus deeply enough, it really happens. This morning I checked my Facebook page and read something written by my partner's niece, and I began to feel this energy thing again, but it was slightly different, like it was the energy of my niece. Really weird but cool stuff!

So back to the hand part that started to emerge in T. There was another part trying to keep it from fully emerging. T was asking for the hand part (or any other part) to talk, and when she did that, I was so grateful that there was a part keeping anyone from speaking. I can't even begin to imagine words coming out of me (or any part) while in that state. I'm afraid of this, and it makes me nervous of what might be said. I can't imagine myself being 37 years old and having something like that take control and talk in front of another person.

I'm wondering if folks would feel comfortable explaining how parts emerge in T. Has anyone experienced what I'm discussing above, and, if so, did a part talk while in a self-imposed hypnotic-like state? Or has anyone experience feeling the energy mentioned above?

writing

yeah, it's happened to me before... but if someone is trying to talk to me then it goes away, but if people talking in the background then it's just white noise.

[anderson]

We/I can feel others energy it helps us to protect our selves. Most paople do not realise that the intent of actions flow first. But when it triggers the wrong parts we are unable to protect the body. we try to say more later just let you know u not alone in this

[loveregardless]

This is too much for me to answer right now, but the short answer is yes. Great post, btw.

[Hunny]

There is a name for this arm movement. (or other bod, facial, etc movement. I need to take notes in my sessions 'cause I've totally forgotten what the word is).

When this happens in my sessions the child parts are coming out, usually although more recently (the last year or so, it was a teenage part). Most parts have their own body movements that the therapist can now pick up on and it is essential for her to know them as she brings them all into the room together at times and welcomes them. I call it a bit Zen-like that the therapist can be so in-tune with me/us. It seems spiritual because I/we carried these parts without anyone knowing them for so many years but in actual fact they are so relieved to be welcomed into the present moment by outsiders that it is now becoming more like our feet are planted securely on the ground like never before. The practical outcome is I/we are uniting in our internal community (Hive). Our boundaries are solidifying, our voice has more clarity. Yes, I/we do receive strength from our caring therapist but it is more like they are returning to me/us what was due in the first place. When we were robbed of our innocence and split off our energy was scattered too. That energy is being returned each time we encounter a new alter, work through the traumatic memory of that alter and talk amongst ourselves or play, as the children like to do.

At least to say, Writiing, that this is how we see what you have asked but this may not be what you mean. It is all so individual yet there are some commonalities at times too.

Love,
Hunny


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[writingwithink]

Hunny,

Thanks for your post. It sounds like you've come a long way.

I would be mortified if one of these "younger" parts emerged in session. Now there are some teenage/adult parts that have talked, but I don't feel threatened by this at all. In fact, as of recent, I've become very grateful for the job they do. My T would probably consider them jacka**es, but it's like I keep seeing more and more about the job they've been and are currently doing, and I'm just so happy they're so diligent at it.

The speechless ones, though, scare me. I would never want that to emerge in front of anyone, including T. I've only been experiencing it myself since last summer, and it's quite freightening. If someone were to walk up on me while one is out, they'd probably think I was having a seizure. The physical feelings during those moments are so intense; not in a good way.

Your post above implies that several emerge in session and talk together. How does this happen? Do they take turns, or did I understand you incorrectly?

Thanks again for sharing. It helps to validate my experience.

writing