[anderson]

Life is such a mixture of full quarters. We got to see some of our Papa and Mama Bears. Some we where able to spend time with and enjoy our selfs with. But others just stopped by to say “HI” then walk away. I guess they thought we would see them and not need them no more.
Our golden cage is the lie that we only need friendship in the spiritual world. I guess to them that if one has so many in one’s head then we do not need anyone in real life.
This life is hell, Each time we try to make friends with those out side of us. It turns out the same she will talk with you then turn her back. Ya right.
In the past 10 years we tried to find someone to be with and hope to have a real family. Now we know that is only a fantasy because all those that clam to be with me never took custody of our son so we no longer had to deal with the treat of him being sent to hell on earth.
So what if we lived on hell on earth all these years.
No matter what we did what we did for a fate worst then death for our son. But now that he is free. We are now trying to find a way to find peace of what is and what will never be.
We are a true magnet we have all emotions flowing throw us. The Good , the Bad, The Ugly.
Hope is for ever internal, It just does not always feel that way. We are many, Yet we are so alone at times for real friends and family. But We will have to wait and see.
We thought wrong, we thought that if we could get a few to accept us that it would not feel so lonely but in troth we feel even more lonely but for those here Thank You for being here. The Lost and the Brave Of PC World.

[Hunny]

Anderson, wister:

I am sorry you are feeling in the cage, instead of sitting on top of it. Your wings are in perfect condition, it's just the door of the cage and the clay feet now.

It's hard in this real world. I have been stuck inside this last day and so I re-read some of the posts you shared with all of us and found them very up-lifting. I would like to that helpful to you right now but I am so fuzzy.

Oh, I do so hope beyond hope that there can be a time in the not too distant future where we might all fly or dance free. I am convinced there could be a convention for survivors (hate that word, I prefer winners and I'm not even competative). We would gather as a statement to the outside world and until then I guess this is where we are 'stuck'. Don't get me wrong, it is a wonderful stuck but realistically it too has its limits, just like the cage.

Please keep posting and telling and re-telling and hopefully the door will be opened soon.

Hunny

[anderson]

(((((Hunny)))))
The good part is that we got to see Barnie and Tom and Mathew.
They all be good to us and we always felt safe with them. The Dalmations are sad cause we no have them in our life. Because we no work we no have a place to go to and see them.
Barney even gave us a stuff barnie one time and told us that we could pretend that he would sit on the dark souls for us when they come near us to scare us. We took that one to work so when the DS came near us we could hold on it and know we be safe.
We just be sad cause we no see them like we use to. We not ready to go to work yet cause we still no feel safe. We all agree to that fact but when all the good guys are out of reach it sucks.
One step at a time, That is all we can do. Safe hugs to all of you from all within me.

[WePow]

Very big hugs!!!!!!!

[Hunny]

(((((( Anderson )))))))

There is not time frame for healing and you are more aware of this than all of us I think. You go at your pace, with no expectations because those are not from a good leading but from some outside pressure. Having arrived at this point today is your success!

I hope for more happy encounters with these 'safe ones' and a way and means to be able to do so. How lovely you were able to take a stuffie that meant so much to you to work with you. Wishing you much safety.

Hunny


You are a most amazing person