[anderson]

I/we got asked why do we hate all men. We in turn asked who said we hated all men for the simple fact that if we where to hate those that have hurt us both in present and pass abuse then we would hate everybody with out any prejudges. Besides people only react by two main emotions that is fear or love.
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With love you are able to accept the fact that the person is where he/ she choices to be on their path in life. This does not mean that you are willing to accept their choices as your own but the ability to place bounders to help prevent them from hurting you. I Have lost count of how many times someone has told me to stop worrying about what others said about me. We are not worried about that we are worried about those that choice to take their bigotry into the physical level. For those with in we have been enduring and recovering from physical abuse for majority of our lives by others because they felt no proof no foul. This is a very dark soul belief to be able to , to even want to hurt another being just because no one would believe that one that they are able to hurt another being but that the crave for the sick feeling of power over another being.
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These are the ones that we fear the most those that clamed that we did things willingly just to make us look worse but also help enlarge a lie that kept us prisoners of abuse and no one would want to help protect us from them after all we are doing it willingly and these souls would never stoop so low as to need to hurt another being for self worth. But most of all if it was true why has she not pressed charges against us. How can a person that endures so much abuse have the strength and the courage to stand up to these people especially when they also hold another person life over their head?
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At our Sunday gathering we where able to talk with some light soul people and they asked why we moved into the woods and refused to work. In turn we asked them why did non of those we thought we could trust not take custody of our son so that the dark souls could not hurt him. One even said but we did and you refused. We looked at them and told them the only ones that offered refuge for our son where the same people that had no problem handing our son to the very people that made us who we are. It was about that time that we saw a light bulb light up in some of their eyes. If you could not believe us before how can we trust you now when the threat to our son is now done to black gossip.
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We moved to the woods for the simple fact that we trust a mountain lion with out body then half of those that you trust. We could tell that they needed to talk alone it was not that we hated these people but the fact that the choice to believe another over us for so long that we were not going to just kiss and make up. So we went to another room and played with a couple of papa bears we even told theme that they needed to be nice to us or they would loose their cape and be demoted to just military bears. They laughed . We stayed near them because a couple of dark souls choice to come that day. We eeewed and turned away from them but later on the Dr. Phd. Wife tried to corner us and that caused us to go into a panic attack we were luck because we where able to run for cover behind one of the men and they made her leave us alone. But the cool part when we just leaned against the wall one of the other women came to talk to us and she helped us out of the panic attack. We were able to leave feeling safe and able to come back the next Sunday.
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So when we got back to our tent we thought about what that person asked us why do we hate men? We don’t. We hate and fear those that have lived off our pain and made names for them selves be they male or female the pain that these people have caused us in the end feel the same to all of us.

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[Lillyleaf]

[justdontknow]

There are some very wise things you said in this post. I can see why others in here like reading your posts. You definitely have wisdom within and it is a comfort to read. You have every right to own your emotions and you don't have to justify them to anyone as long as they stay emotions and not turn into destructive behaviors. Continue to take care of yourself in whatever way you need to regardless of what others say or think.