Flashbacks

Hello, I have flashbacks that are like reality, I have extremely vivid dreams as well, I'm struggling to differentiate between reality and the dissasociations. I cant find a way to calm myself apart from, some rather unsavoury habits.
Its making my family and work life extremely difficult.
I do have a T but, I just can say what happens in them yet, I'm not ready for it.

we cant tell you whether what you are experiencing is which one or even either of them. we also cant tell you the one cure that will make these things be clear about which they are. this is something only you and your treatment people can do together. if we try to diagnose or tell you which what you are experiencing we could do alot of damage. for example 5 people can have the same identical flashback or vivid dream but because each of those 5 people live 5 different types of life the flashbacks and vivid dreams can mean any number of things. my dreaming about a fan can mean Im remembering standing in front of a fan on a hot day. it could be traumatic for me because it was too hot for me that day. another person may dream about a fan and that could mean they are remembering someone hurting them while they stood in front of a fan, another person can dream about a fan and it turn out to be just a hallucination, another person can dream about a fan and its just their imagination of wishing they had a fan like the one their friend had. Another person can be dreaming about a fan and it turns out that their medication is either too strong or not strong enough, someone can dream about a fan and it turn out to be a medical problem.

these dreams and flashbacks could be just about anything and only you and your treatment people can discover why you are having them and what to do about them.

does your T have an answering machine or voicemail. if you cant tell them in person try calling and talking into the machine/voicemail.

you can try writing them out and then take what you write in to your T.

My people like to journal I know what each person thinks and feels I know when they are in a mood or when they just want to talk and get a hug..I'm just not sure about it when it's happening is it me or is it one of the others?...I know later when I see who has signed the journal...

I'm lucky that myman loves me as a whole no matter which person is out he can sit and eat icecream with meg or go through a magic ritual with morgana....we are so lucky...

It is becoming more comfortable to just allow each person to have her time, less needing to grit the teeth & clench the jaw to stop someone from saying something that might cause a fight because now she is allowed to speak. I'm afraid but I'm not...so who wins?

Okay thankyou for the suggestions, sorry but i dont have the neregy of willpower to write up a full blown reply, maybe when i sort my head out.