Needing a friend or two or more

If we switch, the kids get this oh no look and run to dad. If we switch around him, he is dismayed then he asks things like why are you out...where is Dawn...stuff like that. There are exceptions he wanted dd out so he started talking about circuscircus. Then when he got her out he pinned her down and...so we keep littles in bubbles as much as possible around him. He truly hates me as I am not this demure lady like Dawn. I am strong and he hates that.

Storm

i will find a safe place

I am here. To be your friend.

We're here for you as well, we know how it is to be lonely.

(Webber)Erik

I don't deserve friends.

Everyone does.

(Webber)Erik

We have to disagree. We can think of a few people who don't deserve friends.

But everything we have learned about you thus far leads us to believe that you certainly do deserve to have friends. We would like to extend our friendship to you, and hope you will accept it. ~Emma

Things seem to be going great yet I feel so alone. I do not know why. I feel as tho I am barely functioning. I go to chat and just feel disconnected. Inside is covered in darkness so that the only one I see is dc. I am scared.

((((((Silentwhisper))))))

I know the feeling and when I just want to quit I come here and find people like you speaking there truths.

You have alot of friends in us....don't you forget that, okay?

Peace Crew

Silent/Storm/Dawn....you DO deserve friends!! I know controling men never like strong women. Being a good wife and woman does not mean giving up the self that God made you to be. Please be careful and stay safe. I am really concerned for you.....It is hard enough to try to heal, but when someone intentionally triggers you, it is so much harder.
Are the children safe with him?
Many tears on your behalf....you do deserve to feel loved and safe and protected, not tortured.
Many safe and gentle hugs from you friend, Ruby!!

hi ruby an tank u
i dc an i ansrn kuz i b honist sumtims win ms dan jus b kwiit
da hube no hit or nufin lik dat
win ms dawn fown owt bowt us an strn havn flasbaks an memres he no kud tak it
t wud sa git hur tu hospitl an he wud jus lev da meds owt
he trid havn us gotid owt uv hur kuz sumwun sint im dis tap bowt us an demuns
ms dawn trid kiln hurslf lots kuz se towt se kud onle git awa dat awa but se avenshule wint an stad wif frin awil
hube sa se dasurtid him an da kids
se git betr an kumd hom tu fin he had gotn a nane
din se fown nane an im n bed tugevr but he sa da drest an nufn hapind ms dawn kep levn an kumin bak
din se kum bak an he fil fur separashun so he kud se ifn he kud mak tings wurk wif da nane
he ask fur hows an kids an mone an no vizatashun
da judj no go fur dat an gav hur primmare kustode an pozashun uv da hows
so din he dasid he no wana b separatid
but win ms dawn fil rastranin ordr on da nane hu wuz n trubl fur hrtn da gurl din he gotid mad an fild fur davors
he browt up ms dawn havn us an al dat n kort
da judj sa we ma hav mor dokumintid problims but he obveusle had sum tu
da hube no hape
he wud no git hiz on plas but jus sta wif pepl from chursh so he no kud hav kids ovrnit
he wud kep dim durn da an onle fed dim wuns
he wud tak dim but din lev dim wif da chursh pepl wile he du hiz stuf
da no uzt ar kundishunin and kidz git hot an beg fur ms dawn tu let dade wach dim at da hows
da juj no kud mak im bahav an it wint on fur ovr yer an stil nufin final an mor kort an ms dawn kud tak no mor so se letid im bak
se luvz him an saz dis wa se kan mak shur kids ok
he jus maks kids du chursh stuf dat da no wana du
an he iz skare so no dar frins wana kum ovr
da gurl mad mastak uv teln dade hur frins towt he skare an wel dat no wint wel
inewa i no lik im an netr duz inewun nsid but ms dawn
he no lik us an we no kan kum owt awown him
we hops win kidz strt gitn owt uv skul dat se wil finle lev but i nono
we gits mad tu kuz win he nis se akt so gratful but it radikulus
win se wurk it betr kuz din se no hav tu ask im fur mone
i so hape se wurk agin sun
tank u fur lisn tu me an fur karin bowt us an da kids
dc

dc, I am sorry I made you feel the need to have to come forward, but thank you for sharing and I am praying for you all. Ms Dawn is scared and all the drama stresses her out and makes it worse. I do understand her letting him back, she got "beaten down" emotionally...
It is a hard thing to figure what to do. I do not like him either. Maybe she could go to a hospital and stay for a few weeks and get better? But then who knows what he would do.
I am sending safe hugs to all....
I wish I could just drive over and get you guys and take you to a safe place far away...sigh.

no b sore i kumd owt
i lik bn owt lots
se trid goin tu hospitl an had kald hur pdok but da hube gotid upset se tel pdok he trigr hur win se nod he luvz hur an wud nevr hrt hur an watevr ls
tu bad pdok kald wil da n kar an so he hurd al da konvrsashun
tank u fur da saf hugz

dc

Thank You dc...

we are not liars...why do people question our reality just because it differs from theirs?

SW, I have no idea about that. People are scared of what they cannot understand and then deny that which they know to be true....we are not the sickest ones, imo.
I have come to feel that the "world" is insane and we are sane and that makes so much stress on us that we seem to be the ones that are ill. The pressure breaks us, or tries to.
Many safe hugs to you...

I'm sorry you're hurting. I would like to be your friend. PM me anytime.

patti and all of us

we ned tu kri
we no stopid
we bad gurl
vere bad gurl
we hrt pepl
an din we git da
wel u ned tu unrstan spech
wes bad
we jus hrts pepl an ifn we no hrt pepl we stil sem tu b hrtid
du i gots tu go awa

dc

dc, We do not think you are bad. We do not think you are stupid. And if you feel like crying? Go ahead and cry. It can make you feel better. You do not need to go away. ~Emma

I guess this thread should be moved since I no longer fit under this category. I just thought things were lonely before, now things are lonely inside and out. Even here I find it easy to push people away...noone thinks our friendship is worth the work and I must agree. I don't even know why I am posting except I already miss that feeling of maybe mattering to someone.

(((silentwhhisper)))
You matter to us!
We want to be your friend!

scared and overwhelmed

(((((((((((Silent,I am so sorry you don't fell safe and comforted with hubby .I wish I could help.I am sure we (at P.C.) all wish to bring you comfort and relief.Please keep posting.We are here and we are listening.))))))))....p.s...(I am not D.I.D,but none the less.....I care)

((((Silent Whisper)))) Know that you're not alone. In this okay hun. I've been there and done that too. I would love to be your friend just like the rest of us? It's like the other's in here are your friends honey!!!
Take Care Silent okay honey it'll be fine.