me thinks...................

.................Tneeds to quit droppign bombs when her world alreddy fallign apart.
beads

WE hear you and those within beadslady, we feel the same tonight. just know we hear you. we sends you stuffies and saf blanket to hide under til u safe again.
from all of us to all of you!

(((((Beads)))))...The bomb dropping is the only way to get this crap gone. I am so sorry you are having a tough time. Know that we are here and offering much support and many safe hugs, if you need them....

((((Beads))))

We are thinking about you and sending positive thoughts and warm fuzzies from the Hotel.

Cris and the Hotel

(((beads)))

Wow! thnks ye all far so much support & warm fuzzies! and anderson, we ARE hideing under that blanket far sure.
Now T wont enven anser her emails.......reckon he must be savign up far therapy tomororrow ( aklready beened their once thjis week, T decided that oncsnt enuf, we get to do this agin tomorrow ).
beads

(((((Beads)))))...

Did you appointment go better today?

Cris

Hi Beadlady

I don't know what we can add but we want you to know for being such a positive force in the lives you touch....
we don't know you well
yet......
you've touched us,

by the way

Crew

anderson...........thank you far shareign stufies & blanket w/ beads. can she hide in the blanket and hold stufei a whiel longer? still not safe. xxxxxxxxaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqq
Nupoet
thank you far your honesty!! so does thjis mean thart T does this on purpose at the worst possibel tiems? how can that help to make things gooder? sorry, but it dont seem ta be working so well are make sense.eeeeeeiiiiiiiiiiiiicckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
justdontknow
thank you so very much far the soft blasnket and warm fuzzeis. you have no idea how much that means to beads rite now. bout shorter then this these days.
(((((Miracle1986))))))))))
THank you far your hugs!!!!beads just know that they are gentel.

(((((Beads)))))...Have you talked to T about what you are feeling? Maybe T is not aware of the true feelings inside you. But sometimes the bad feelings are things coming to the surface and T sees a window of opportunity to help you break it thru so you can process it...I do not know which it is....need to talk toT and be honest about feelings..
Many safe hugs...

justdontknow seem ta be abel a do what T are anyoen else far that matter is acceptign of us rite now. it is not that we dont care. it is that we are struglign just ta keep her head outta the water adn cant even tell them this.
Crew
thank you much faqr such a compliment. not sure what we done but gladalot iffen help someone.the lkandlord stoled 2 money orders from us and a lot of cash. broke into beads apt. when not home far some of it..........and now the new lanlord ( old one goed to jail) refused ta put new lock on the dorr.
lady what is suposed ta be freind have beened helping herself to our bead stash when we are not looking. and then theirs the relationship isseus. so we dont feel very positive rite now. but beads still tryign ta put one foot in font of the other and stay on the straite and narrow.
hope your doing well, bye the way. me thinks billy joel was rite in his song about only the good die young about now.

Nupoet we has talk to T until were purple about stuff we no we feel on the surface. but yeah, their somethign go on under the surface adn cant put finer on it tho. somethign no rite. some of those that could talk before cannot now because they are THAT scaird they cqnt talk. dunno why. this is such a mess. cdunno how to fix.

Beads, that sounds like when I ahve a memory surfacing. It create a pressure inside, a panic and a hysteria in the inner world. My children grow silent and hide. This maybe why T is pushing a bit....when these occur, if they are allowed to be reburied, they are harder to get out the next time.
I am so sorry you are going thru a hard time...please know you HAVE ALREADY LIVED THROUGH IT!!! You are a SURVIVOR!! This is just a bad memory that someone inside keeps reliving adn it must be processed in order to put it in the proper memory file in the brain...leaving the pain and panic behind, in the past, where it belongs.
Many safe adn gentle hugs....

Nupoet, thank you!
beads still gotteds yet another question,. it may sound really stupid, but please dont tak offense of it cuz we would not ask if beads no the anser.what, how do you get that memory ta come out in the open.???
like dont no which one of us has it even, and no clue how ta make her/him safe enuf to spill the beans. T even took us to blue safe house last week an nuthign. like failed missoin. but we not gonna give up on this. hopefully T not go to neither. dunno. well, anyways, any input anyone mite have on this beds would sure appreceite their input.
adn, by the way, God bless those of you what has been so supportive and such a insperatoin far beads. We love you all adn so thankfull of your kindness & freindship.
mary susan