[disguise123]

the mother: she tells me/ herself / the others to buck up, she tells us what to do.
The weak one: panics, engages in si tells us what to do.
And there is a third one that is silent (i think that is me??? The silent one is so depressed she says nothing.
Does this make sense, i dont have alters, these things dont come out in my real life but are in my head when im alone. I think its just my mind making it up when im conflicted?

[disguise123]

i honestly dont get it, i am bipolar, not suffering DID. I know that. Maybe its just me trying out my own strange brand of cognitive behaviourial
Therapy?

[disguise123]

p.s. They sound like me in my head not unknown voices.

[invisigirl]

We all have parts. Those who have DID and those who don't. So, keep that in mind...

Here's my perspective, for what it's worth.. my husband is Bipolar and I think he tends to be more aware of his parts than other people seem to be. Because he has times when he doesn't 'feel like himself' but he still IS himself. Does that make sense? We find it easy to relate to each other on that level of 'disconnection' that is experienced both by Bipolar people and by people who have dissociation issues.

I hope that helps.

Are you working with a T? Have you talked to them about this?

[disguise123]

thankyou. No, no T. I have a hard time making it to any appointments, i tried counselling about 3 times but they strike me off there books, i often panic and cant get to the sessions and wont answer my phone.

[disguise123]

but that helps.

[invisigirl]

I can certainly understand how that is. I have had some issues with getting to therapy as well and nearly skipped it this week.

I wanted to add, I think one of the big differences between people and their parts and people with DID, is that most people are fully aware and conscious of all aspects or parts of themselves whereas people with DID are not. They may have parts that are hidden from their conscious, they may have parts that will come out or take control and they are unaware of it.. leaving them with a blank space in their memory.

For example, I may have a conversation with my husband about plans he has after work tomorrow. Tomorrow comes and it is time for him to be off work and I have NO idea where he is or what he is doing because I have NO recollection of our conversation about it. (This has actually happened in the past.) And it's not as if I have a vague memory of it or like it slipped my mind or I forgot but I can kind of remember when reminded, but rather I have absolutely no memory of discussing the matter with him.

Not everyone experiences dissociation or DID in this way.. this is just my experience. I have also had experiences like you described - in my head when I am alone. I don't know where those types of things fall though..

Anyway... just my 2 cents.

[disguise123]

thats ok, your two cents are apreciated, im very often forgetful, but i see the difference now! I understand why i have these things, i dont know why i was worried before!