I feel a bit as though I have been running at full speed for the past couple of days. Tonight I feel exhausted.

I haven't been contacted by the hospital today. I was told I would be, and let them know the times when I was able to take calls. However, nobody phoned. I have some free time on Friday morning which I also told them about, so maybe they will phone then. I hate waiting to find out - it makes me feel very anxious, and I am anxious about this to start with.

Just too tired and not knowing what to do with myself.

Caroline

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((caroline))))))))))))))))))) if you can't get physical rest and let the mind "wander", can you do something relaxing (i.e. painting)? I wish you some rest and answers soon.

kd

[Gemstone]

{{{{Caroline}}}}}

I hate waiting too. I'm sorry they didn't call you today.

Take good care of yourself. Is there something you can do that is relaxing for you? Maybe quilt or take a bath?

[allthegirls6]

waiting, aaarrgh, no one likes that Caroline. It makes the best of people anxious.

Hopefully the call will come on Friday and it will feel better.

Roll on Friday

atg

[CedarS]

(((((((((Caroline))))))))))))

I can so relate.

[tamzinrose]

Poor Caroline. I hate to wait and I hate phones...*Sigh* Right there with you. Roll on Friday...

Hi kimmy

I'm going to go for the physical rest any moment now. Sadly, when I am this tired I find it hard to settle to anything restful. In fact it is hard to settle to anything. I've played a couple of computer games and that has helped. Thanks for the ideas and the hugs.

Caroline

Thank you Gem.

Yes, I don't do waiting very well. You come across the phrase, "Lord, give me patience - and make it soon!"? That's me! Trouble is, in all seriousness, that I imagine all the worst case scenarios with the hospital. I hate conflict and that is what I am scared this will become. I'm about to go and get some rest - playing some computer games has passed the time, and it looks like the marking I should have done is going to have to wait a bit.
Caroline

Thanks for understanding so well, atg. I find waiting SO difficult. I catastrophise all over the place. Time to use all those self talk techniques I guess - but that too is really hard when I am tired. At least I know already that tomorrow I will be so busy there won't be time for worrying!

Caroline

Thanks, Sarah! Hugs back at you.
Caroline

Thanks tamzin. Yes, phone calls are something I find hard. Not sure why. Maybe it is something to do with not being able to read people's body language and so anticipate and prepare mentally. Not sure. Roll on Friday indeed - not least because then it will be the WEEKEND!!!!

Caroline

[tamzinrose]

Ah, weeeeeeekend. *Sigh of pleasure* But...until then I have school and an I.t presentation I'm meant to be doing for homework right now... Oops.

Can i help with the IT presentation? After all, I am an IT teacher...!
Caroline

[tamzinrose]

Lol well I've done it all except for some reason I can't get the pictures to work. So I think I'll just leave it without pictures and if my teacher asks I will say that my computer went mad...