Does anyone else with a dissociative disorder ever have major issues with indecisiveness? It's so a big thing lately.

I want this, no this, no this, no that. No that's a stupid idea I want this. I like this person, I hate this person. I'm smart, I'm stupid. I can be loud and boisterous, dreadfully quiet and just plain normal. I can't decide what meds I should and shouldn't take. What diet to follow. I go from healthy eating because it will create a great future. To "well who cares! I love cake!" I go from loving a food to it making me want to puke to treating it like any other food. I overexercise, underexercise or just act normal. I like this type of music, no this type, no this type, no I like it all.

I become obsessed with my image, buying make up, wanting to wear dressy clothes, then want to be natural and bohemian to wearing sweats to jeans and t-shirts. I like gardening, and then it doesn't interest me. I like reading and then I move to animal rights.

I want to be a human rights major, then I want to be a nurse, then I want to be a vet, then I want to work in the peace corps, then I want to die and do nothing, because life doesnt matter anymore.

I want the style of my apartment to be one theme, then another, then another, then back to the original theme. Always tearing down and putting back up. I want toys and then I think it makes me immature. I'll drink 4 gallons of milk a week, then none. I'll be obsessed with dogs, then cats, then hedgehogs, then reptiles, then go back to dogs.

I go from angry, to happy, to mellow, to so so, to very sad, to afraid, back to happy, skip to sad, skip back to angry.

I feel like I have no idea who I am? It drives me nuts and I don't know how to balance all of this! Does anyone experienced this or have any suggestions to balancing?

[Crew]

I think that indecisiveness is part of human nature and that I don't think it's dissociative. Then again, I am healing like you and that is my own opinion as I am not a professional... I do hope you can work it out. Maybe put a Pro's and Cons to everything you want to do then making decisions are so much easier.
with your ideas... and I hope things work out for you....

also btw... Crew

[Noah's Wife]

I have problems with indecisiveness, too.
Especially during the more raw times of healing.
There are some really practical things I've found that work for me. It's become one of the less scary things about DID for me...
- to view decisions as choices
- to make those choices by what I want instead of what I should do (or that part wants or should do)
- to realize there are 365 days in a year. If one part wants ketchup on their potatoes one day, surely the next day, the other could have gravy on theirs. That sort of thing.

btw, how are you?
you seemed pretty vulnerable yesterday...