[Claritytoo]

I have been having some difficulty at work lately. My boss who is also my friend asked me again "what is wrong with you". I have been switching to a less informed alter as it relates to my work. So I have been asking questions that I should know the answer to. When he tells me the answer I think "oh I know that", or he doesn't tell me the answer because he thinks I am joking. My co workers are starting to notice also. For the last few weeks I have been asking them what day it is. Or saying that I am off the next day and I am not. Because I think it is Wednesday and it is Sunday. I noticed the increase in switching with in the last six months. I am also more aware of it because of my therapy, but it never got in the way of my work. Is this happening because I am acknowledging my other selves (alters)? I tried to have a talk with them today but I am not sure if anyone was listening. I explained that I can not pop in and out during work. Does switching increase once you accept that you have DID? My concern is that I am losing control.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Claritytoo

I have been having some difficulty at work lately. My boss who is also my friend asked me again "what is wrong with you". I have been switching to a less informed alter as it relates to my work. So I have been asking questions that I should know the answer to. When he tells me the answer I think "oh I know that", or he doesn't tell me the answer because he thinks I am joking. My co workers are starting to notice also. For the last few weeks I have been asking them what day it is. Or saying that I am off the next day and I am not. Because I think it is Wednesday and it is Sunday. I noticed the increase in switching with in the last six months. I am also more aware of it because of my therapy, but it never got in the way of my work. Is this happening because I am acknowledging my other selves (alters)? I tried to have a talk with them today but I am not sure if anyone was listening. I explained that I can not pop in and out during work. Does switching increase once you accept that you have DID? My concern is that I am losing control.

no switching does not increase with acceptance of the disorder. usually it goes the other way, with acceptance comes better understanding and better coping tools so that switching decreases.

example

before diagnosis I didnt know I had DID, I was switching all over the place with no control, no idea it was happening.

then my therapist recognized my switching and asked me to go through testing.

after testing the results showed I had DID.

the psychiatrist and my therapist explained the disorder and we all began working on grounding and getting to know the alters and why I swiitch all over the place.

this enabled me to gain control over switching which reduced the switching down to only those times when I was triggered.

over time and as my problems got work out and taken care of the alters merged with me to become one whole person again.

for a while it did seem to me (my thinking not reality) that things were worse because I was now aware of the full extent of the disorder and that I had it so every little thing that happened had to be because of the DID. in reality what I was seeing was the same things that was going on before I was diagnosed. getting the name for it didnt change what already was, it only changed my perception of myself. like my therapist explained receiving the diagnosis doesnt make things worse. it just puts a name on it.like if someone had asthma. being diagnosed doesnt make the asthma worse. it just puts a name to what has already been there. but when the asthmatic gets the diagnosis the blinders to being ok is taken off. they now have to deal with all the symptoms and problems that is that disorder. they cant turn a blind eye anymore. they see it in entirety.

Now I dont worry about the names of all my problems I just take care of the problems as they come along.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by amandalouise

no switching does not increase with acceptance of the disorder. usually it goes the other way, with acceptance comes better understanding and better coping tools so that switching decreases.

example

before diagnosis I didnt know I had DID, I was switching all over the place with no control, no idea it was happening.

then my therapist recognized my switching and asked me to go through testing.

after testing the results showed I had DID.

the psychiatrist and my therapist explained the disorder and we all began working on grounding and getting to know the alters and why I swiitch all over the place.

this enabled me to gain control over switching which reduced the switching down to only those times when I was triggered.

over time and as my problems got work out and taken care of the alters merged with me to become one whole person again.

for a while it did seem to me (my thinking not reality) that things were worse because I was now aware of the full extent of the disorder and that I had it so every little thing that happened had to be because of the DID. in reality what I was seeing was the same things that was going on before I was diagnosed. getting the name for it didnt change what already was, it only changed my perception of myself. like my therapist explained receiving the diagnosis doesnt make things worse. it just puts a name on it.like if someone had asthma. being diagnosed doesnt make the asthma worse. it just puts a name to what has already been there. but when the asthmatic gets the diagnosis the blinders to being ok is taken off. they now have to deal with all the symptoms and problems that is that disorder. they cant turn a blind eye anymore. they see it in entirety.

Now I dont worry about the names of all my problems I just take care of the problems as they come along.

I understand what you are saying and it does make sense. I was sent for a bunch of mri and blood work to see if my memory issues were physical. Everything came back ok. Today I was using a piece of machenery at work. I know how it works but I couldn't remember exactly. Than at some point in the after noon I became inpatient with how the machine was proforming so I pulled the lever foward, pushed it back, hit the green button and pulled the lever foward again. Just like I know how to do. Before that moment I wasn't sure what to do. Than my head cleared and it was like I had never forgotten. I don't remember having those type of issues before working on my dissociating. It's unsettling. But I will keep in mind what you have said and think of it as a heighten awareness of my behavior due to having a better understanding of what I am experiencing, Thanks