[Darbypar]

Am I doing this to myself? I feel that there are at least 4 other personalities in my head, but am I just imagining? After my mental breakdown 3 months ago, I've been having trouble remembering anything from the past year and my husband is about to have a breakdown of his own. Please tell me that the depression, exhaustion, mood swings and memory loss will end soon...

Is it ok to let the angry personality handle my problems? Am I crazy? I am an easygoing person who generally lets people walk all over me, but the angry part of me wants to take over. It's almost like I can't control her anymore.

Does anyone believe in multiple personalities? My psych says it doesn't exist, but then why do I feel like I'm being torn into several different people. I really do wish I could just let some of them come out. For some reason, I feel like I would be happier.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Darbypar

Am I doing this to myself? I feel that there are at least 4 other personalities in my head, but am I just imagining? After my mental breakdown 3 months ago, I've been having trouble remembering anything from the past year and my husband is about to have a breakdown of his own. Please tell me that the depression, exhaustion, mood swings and memory loss will end soon...

Is it ok to let the angry personality handle my problems? Am I crazy? I am an easygoing person who generally lets people walk all over me, but the angry part of me wants to take over. It's almost like I can't control her anymore.

Does anyone believe in multiple personalities? My psych says it doesn't exist, but then why do I feel like I'm being torn into several different people. I really do wish I could just let some of them come out. For some reason, I feel like I would be happier.

Originally Posted by Darbypar

Am I doing this to myself?

Originally Posted by Darbypar

am I just imagining?

Im sorry but we cant answer these questions.. doing that is called making a diagnosis and we are not allowed to diagnose or perform online therapy on each other. Only you and your treatment providers know whether you are doing this to yourself or imagining it.

Originally Posted by Darbypar

Please tell me that the depression, exhaustion, mood swings and memory loss will end soon...

we cant answer this, only your treatment providers can say whether these things will end for you and when..

Originally Posted by Darbypar

Is it ok to let the angry personality handle my problems?

Im sorry we cant tell you whether its ok for you to let your angry personality handle you problems... doing that could possibly cause you harm if your treatment providers have told you differently than what we tell you. you must do what ever your treatment providers do, they are the ones that know whats best for you....

Originally Posted by Darbypar

Am I crazy?

I dont know, are you? by that I mean the word crazy means different things to different people, locations and treatment providers.. only you and your treatment providers can say whether you are crazy.. here where I live and work we dont use that term for diagnosing or describing the mentally ill. Sometimes I have used the term to describe how I was feeling though and here where I live and work everyone is entitled to their own feelings so when I felt like I was crazy I felt crazy, other people cant tell me my feelings are not what they are because I am the one that is feeling them..only you know whether your area and treatment providers used the term crazy to mean mentally ill and only you know what you are feeling. if you are feeling crazy then you are feeling crazy. if your location and treatment providers use the term crazy for the term mentally ill go according to what ever they say.

Originally Posted by Darbypar

Does anyone believe in multiple personalities?

yes there are people that believe in multiple personalities...if they didnt there wouldnt be the diagnosis of Dissociative Identity Disorder in the diagnostic manual that America (the USA) uses for for diagnosing multiple personalitiies.

Originally Posted by Darbypar

My psych says it doesn't exist, but then why do I feel like I'm being torn into several different people.I really do wish I could just let some of them come out.

there are many reasons why a treatment provider may think it doesnt exist in a person...

One thing treatment providers around here where I live and work know/believe is that a person cant control when their alters take control (come out), example the diagnostics say the alters take control it doesnt say the person allows the alter to be in control.. and it has to happen many times. if the alters coming out doesnt happen like this then treatment providers cant diagnose you with DID.. this may be one reason why you havent been diagnosed DID.

But it may not be the reason too.. there is much more to being DID than switching into alters in front of other people.. It may be that you have some symptoms that fit DID and have other symptoms that dont fit DID and together those symptoms say DID doesnt exist in you.

for example some DID people hear voices but so do people with schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, depression, PTSD... and a whole bunch of other mental and physical health problems..depending upon what other symptoms there are in a person along with the hearing voices points the direction to other mental disorders than DID..

the same with having alters.. many different mental and physical health problems share the symptom of feeling like you have many different personalities you are switching into.. So treatment providers have to take note of all the other symptoms too.. then put the whole picture together of all the symptoms not just look at the personalities.

my point being there are many different kinds of symptoms / problems that get a person diagnosed with DID or not..it could be as simple as you dont have the kind of alters that come with DID but do have the kind that come with whatever your treatment providers have diagnosed you with.. or it could be you just dont have the right combination of symptoms, or .... gosh so many different things...

my suggestion - talk with your treatment providers they will tell you what youir diagnosis is and why they believe DID does not exist in you.

[Claritytoo]

Originally Posted by Darbypar

Am I doing this to myself? I feel that there are at least 4 other personalities in my head, but am I just imagining? After my mental breakdown 3 months ago, I've been having trouble remembering anything from the past year and my husband is about to have a breakdown of his own. Please tell me that the depression, exhaustion, mood swings and memory loss will end soon...

Is it ok to let the angry personality handle my problems? Am I crazy? I am an easygoing person who generally lets people walk all over me, but the angry part of me wants to take over. It's almost like I can't control her anymore.

Does anyone believe in multiple personalities? My psych says it doesn't exist, but then why do I feel like I'm being torn into several different people. I really do wish I could just let some of them come out. For some reason, I feel like I would be happier.

You need a new psy. I was diagnosed a little over two years ago. With in the last 10 years I began to realize that other people didn't function like me. They didn't have others who would step foward to deal with difficult issues. I didn't want to believe I had DID at first but I had read so much on other disorders and I didn't fit. I still have bouts of denial. But I know I am much better off now that I have some understand of what is going in my head. Over the last three years I just thought I was going insane. My moods were spilling out into situations that they couldn't handle. Friends and Family was asking me if I was all right. Or saying that I have been acting different. My therapist understands DID and believes it exists. There are just too many of us who don't fall into the other categories. Once I acknowledged that DID was a possibility I was able to start listening to the thoughts in my head as individual aspects of me. Once I did that I began to realize I was not insane. I just needed to work with the thoughts and them to work with me. I am still early in my therapy. But I see hope of a peaceful mind down the road. Stick with it and work with your voices. It will be ok.

[Darbypar]

Originally Posted by amandalouise

my suggestion - talk with your treatment providers they will tell you what youir diagnosis is and why they believe DID does not exist in you.

My diagnosis is DID, but my psych says it's not the same as multiple personalities and she warns me not to put names with my "feelings", but they're in there screaming their names.

Thank you for the advice

[Darbypar]

[quote=Claritytoo;2285614] Friends and Family was asking me if I was all right. Or saying that I have been acting different.

My parents know what's going on and they believe it to be their fault since most of this stems from childhood abuse by a family member, but my in-laws are very confused and rumors have spread that my husband has cheated on me or that we're having marital problems. I try so hard to be "normal" but I can't control it all the time. I'm afraid if I let the others control me, I'll lose my kids or my husband will give up on me.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Darbypar

My diagnosis is DID, but my psych says it's not the same as multiple personalities and she warns me not to put names with my "feelings", but they're in there screaming their names.

Thank you for the advice

you might want to talk with your psych again.

I saw you were in ohio and I remembered a client from our crisis center,that transferred from here (NY) to ohio. when I saw this post I became a bit concerned for her, so I just now called to check on the crisis center client who was DID and transferred to Ohio.

I was told Ohio does believe DID and MPD (multiple Personality Disorder) are the same thing.

Im wondering now if your psych said your disorder is **like** DID but your alters are not the kind that are multiple personality.

there are many kinds of alters ...ego states..introjects... and many other kinds that are like DID but are not multiple personality (DID) alters.

sometimes when we are getting diagnosed or hear diagnosis labels we hear only the label and a few choice words.. just the strange way the brain works with stress of diagnosis.

my suggestion talk with your treatment provider they can help clarify these issues you have around DID and your alters.

[Puzzle_]

If its real for you, its real for you. Unfortunately , you cannot make other people believe things. If they are telling you their names, I may suggest, keep a journal for them? This is what I do, they speak to eachother and express their names there. That might help you,

I empathize with you, you sound distressed, and its very lonely to go about this and feel like nobody understands. But good thing there's Places like these, where some do understand . Don't try to be "normal" there is no normal, and it backfires my friend.
You might need a new Therapist, this one doesn't sound very helpful or encouraging.

Puzzle_Puzzle_