[10/6]

So, this is really stupid and I can't believe I'm posting this, but its driving me crazy and I don't know what to do.

So I'm integrated, but still not sure what and all that means. I didn't want to deal with it for the longest time and disassociated. Now, I'm having to face it. Anyways, I was triggering really badly when I first started to face it and didn't want my friends to see me behave weirdly so I used my recent graduation as an excuse not to see them. Its now been 6 months and my friends are messaging me about hanging out and catching up.

Another of my friends joined the military and has been away for a few years, but is visiting me on Saturday. This isn't the problem, I love him to death and he knows about the DID and has been a great help.

On Monday, my other friends are coming to hang out with us and meet him. I'm worried that I won't behave normally and that my friends will notice that there is something wrong. As far as they know, the worst thing I've had to deal with is ADHD and my parent's divorce.

I don't know how I will hide the fact that I can't stand to be touched or that things that I used to not care about can send me off on a rant or... the list goes on.

Advice? Pretty please with sugar on top and a cherry?

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by 10/6

So, this is really stupid and I can't believe I'm posting this, but its driving me crazy and I don't know what to do.

So I'm integrated, but still not sure what and all that means. I didn't want to deal with it for the longest time and disassociated. Now, I'm having to face it. Anyways, I was triggering really badly when I first started to face it and didn't want my friends to see me behave weirdly so I used my recent graduation as an excuse not to see them. Its now been 6 months and my friends are messaging me about hanging out and catching up.

Another of my friends joined the military and has been away for a few years, but is visiting me on Saturday. This isn't the problem, I love him to death and he knows about the DID and has been a great help.

On Monday, my other friends are coming to hang out with us and meet him. I'm worried that I won't behave normally and that my friends will notice that there is something wrong. As far as they know, the worst thing I've had to deal with is ADHD and my parent's divorce.

I don't know how I will hide the fact that I can't stand to be touched or that things that I used to not care about can send me off on a rant or... the list goes on.

Advice? Pretty please with sugar on top and a cherry?

So I'm integrated, but still not sure what and all that means[/QUOTE]

[QUOTE=10/6;2285728]according to mental health providers here where I live and work...integrated means you no longer switch into separate alternate personalities. your alters have all merged with in you to form one whole person - you. you are now just like any other person who does not have DID.

not liking to be touched... even normal people dont always like to be touched. they dont explain to people they just follow the rule of space.. your space is the distance all around you from the center (where you are standing or sitting) to your finger tips when you put out your arms straight out in front of you, to the sides of you and behind you.. normal people just take a step back when ever they notice someone is in their "space".

normal people do have their topics that they are fond of or those that send them talking 90 miles an hour at length about.. they will understand. one thing I have noticed some people do in this situation is reminding theirself to listen as well as talk. holding a conversation is a two way street.. one way they do this is by asking a question bla bla bla what do you think about this, listen to their answer and go from there.

[10/6]

Originally Posted by amandalouise

So I'm integrated, but still not sure what and all that means

Originally Posted by 10/6

according to mental health providers here where I live and work...integrated means you no longer switch into separate alternate personalities. your alters have all merged with in you to form one whole person - you. you are now just like any other person who does not have DID.

not liking to be touched... even normal people dont always like to be touched. they dont explain to people they just follow the rule of space.. your space is the distance all around you from the center (where you are standing or sitting) to your finger tips when you put out your arms straight out in front of you, to the sides of you and behind you.. normal people just take a step back when ever they notice someone is in their "space".

normal people do have their topics that they are fond of or those that send them talking 90 miles an hour at length about.. they will understand. one thing I have noticed some people do in this situation is reminding theirself to listen as well as talk. holding a conversation is a two way street.. one way they do this is by asking a question bla bla bla what do you think about this, listen to their answer and go from there.

Thank you. You're response really helped me to calm down and start thinking logically. The day went well and without any incidents. Although, I was exhausted by the end of it.

Thank you.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by 10/6

Thank you. You're response really helped me to calm down and start thinking logically. The day went well and without any incidents. Although, I was exhausted by the end of it.

Thank you.

thanks for the update, glad things went well for you.