[Puzzle_]

Things had calmed down a bit for me, I was more present for longer times, and suddenly I started losing time again, more and more. I thought I was starting to gain a bit more co-consciousness, and suddenly as I started tracking my day, I realize Ive missed hours at a time, and as I realize that...
See, usually I just let it alone and say 'oh well'
but its been really getting to me, Im so depressed. This has happened before, but Im so tired. I just dont understand how or when I do what.

I feel so alone.

[Sprite~]

So very sorry to hear that you're struggling right now, Puzzle!!

Have you been taking care of your 'whole'? I mean eating and getting some good sleep in? It can make a difference, maybe not in the symptoms, but in your response to them. Make certain you remember, too, that things will again be good !!

I hope that you can chat with your T to find out what is up with the lost time again. Then you may have more insight as to how to make life manageable again.

Know you are not alone~
Thinking of you!

Do you have a therapist to help you through this?

[Puzzle_]

Originally Posted by Sprite~

So very sorry to hear that you're struggling right now, Puzzle!!

Have you been taking care of your 'whole'? I mean eating and getting some good sleep in? It can make a difference, maybe not in the symptoms, but in your response to them. Make certain you remember, too, that things will again be good !!

I hope that you can chat with your T to find out what is up with the lost time again. Then you may have more insight as to how to make life manageable again.

Know you are not alone~
Thinking of you!

Have been eating, and all that, its just I feel more out of place much more often now. I guess I was better off when I just dismissed it.
I do have a T, I guess I should bring this up.

[Sprite~]

Awareness is the first step towards acceptance and then growth. If you are unsettled because of your feelings, chat with your T about it. I think that it's healthy to acknowledge the way you're feeling. In DBT today we were told that there is no one who can tell us a 'feeling' is right or wrong. We can challenge ourselves to be stronger and ride the wave of feelings.

[Puzzle_]

Too bad my T has been away...I guess I'll deal with this some how. I have been trying to be stronger and keep myself focused. Its been a bit difficult...
I guess what I've been struggling with the most is switching so much constantly being bombarded with so much confusion.

Puzzle_Puzzle_

[Nammu]

((((puzle))))

I just went though some days like that in the past few weeks. I'd get up, then it would be 4am. Wha...I didn't come here much, when I did, I found I had no words. Then today happened. I got so much done in therapy! Someone else suggested that I wasn't just sitting but settling. Everything was getting ready, ready for some self discovery. I think she was right, because wow...today was productive. Maybe thats true for you too?

Be gentle with your whole. ((((((()))))

[Puzzle_]

I havent had therapy in a bit, but I cant even control what happens in therapy half the time, perhaps you're right though, perhaps this is just a breakthrough waiting to happen.
I sure hope it is.
Thank you sidestepper

[amandalouise]

Puzzle - when Im having more dissociative symptoms than I did a week or so ago my therapist asks me - "so whats changed from when you thought you have been more focused, more aware to now when you notice this going on?"

she asks this question because when dissociatives notice they have more awareness and then go to having more symptoms, loss of time, foggyness....it is usually because they either stopped using grounding...(what ever therapeutic tool they have been taught that gave them more stability/awareness/groundedness... or they have had more stress in their life lately and havent been taking the time to address those issues so their alters are doing that for them...

my suggestion - see if you can figure out what that new thing in your life is that is causing you to become less grounded, and let your alters know you will take care of it for them. another suggestions see if you can think about all the things you and your therapist did together that gave you more awareness and try doing them on your own while your therapist is not available. you might even try some self soothing... do things that will calm you, relax you..

I dont know about where you are but here the mental health agencies and treatment providers have to have other treatment providers who are managing their cases while they are gone. can you contact the treatment provider that is taking care of your therapists clients until they get back.. maybe they have some ideas that will help you too.

[Nammu]

Whatever might be going on, I wish you(all) the best.

I know what you mean about therapy! I gave up trying to "control" what happened there a long time ago. I found if was much better when I just came with 1 or 2 things that I thought might be important but still left it serendipity doo because it seems like I got so much more out of it when I let go of what I thought was important and went with the questions my T's would ask. I've been incredibly lucky w/ great intuitive T's. Of course there are those days when 50 minutes feel more like 5 weeks and times when it feels like 5 minutes! On either end of the extreme I'm usually learning something important!

Take care.

[Puzzle_]

I tried to sit down and figure this out, and asked some inside...
Its the holidays I believe.
I dont know really what it is about it but its causing lots of horrible symptoms.
It seems to be getting worse, and Im afraid to go to work, for fear it might be triggered.

..I do not have a substitute Therapist, for now I must wait few more weeks until Therapy starts again.

Unsure.
I would give a detailed thank you response to all those who answered, but for now I can only leave it to thank you very much for relating and giving suggestions.

(---)_

[Nammu]

(((((Puzzle))))) to all.

Wish I had some glorious words that could help. It is hard when things happen and no T around to help. Be gentle with (all) and remember to breath when it is hard to.

[Sprite~]

Puzzle~
I'm so glad you found the awareness of what is at the core of your unsettled feelings! It's always the first step toward growth

Hang in there, knowing things will improve!

[Puzzle_]

Thank you everyone for your reponses, hugs and thanks. You're right Sprite, its good I at least got an answer as to what was going on...
Thank you again all
I am very appreciative of this community

Puzzle_Puzzle_