[IowaFarmGal]

I have the little girl, who is pretty optimistic. She will take over when I get overwhelmed sometimes. She kind of sparkles when she comes up as I'm shutting down. I will be minimally aware but not functioning as a person, just recording but cut off emotionally from what happens. There's an angry defiant one too, but that one is very short term. Nothing has happened with this in a while. The last time was the therapist triggering it for diagnostic purposes.

[IowaFarmGal]

The T was suddenly unexpectedly abusive and dominating toward me. He did this repeatedly to knock me out. It caused me to lose two years of my life. He was working with the little girl. I'm unsure why this was done. He had finally decided she was done and he made this gesture like "come here for a hug" The anger entity woke up upon seeing that and then I woke up and got us out of there. Immediately without the hug I must say! My therapist I work with now also triggered the little girl for diagnostic purposed but she did not use an abusive approach.

[IowaFarmGal]

Thank You to the Moderator for bringing me here! Is this the way therapy was done to others?

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by IowaFarmGal

Thank You to the Moderator for bringing me here! Is this the way therapy was done to others?

no treatment providers here in the USA do not force /coerce/ call out/purposely trigger alters to come out and talk...False memory syndrome guidelines/rules and laws prevent them from doing that here in the USA.

the diagnostic tests itself is set up in such away that if there are alters they will be noticed..

it is normal to talk about triggering things with a psychiatrist and is normal for a psychiatrists to bring up triggering things during a testing procedure. example the psychiatrist cant diagnose you with being sexually abused if you dont tell them you were, a psychiatrist cant diagnose you with panic attacks if you dont talk about panic attacks and what makes you panic. A psychiatrist cant just take a look at a person and see they have a mental disorder, they have to ask questions find out where your mind is at, what things you have gone through and what things cause you problems.

if you are in the USA and you feel a psychiatrist did wrong when testing you, you can contact your states ethics board and submit a complaint, they will hold a hearing, hear testimony from you and anyone else involved including the psychiatrist that may have done you wrong. If the hearing results find he did wrong the state ethics board will penalize them, and place a report so that others seeking mental health care will know disciplinary action was taken against them.

[IowaFarmGal]

TRIGGER

Do you know when the law because of false memory syndrome was put in place? I know that he did this to other women too. I don't understand the purpose of it. Was there a time that this would have been an accepted method? I have asked my therapist that I go to now why this was done to me and she gave me something to read about where memories of trauma are stored, but I don't fully understand. I asked again and she just said, "Oh we're back to that are we?" He was a clinical director but not an MD. A psychologist I think or else a type of social worker. I don't think he did anything to me physically but I don't like not remembering. Similar methods were used against me in the past to coerce me physically. I need to put a trigger on here to complete what I'm saying. Where do I reach a trigger icon?

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by IowaFarmGal

TRIGGER

Do you know when the law because of false memory syndrome was put in place? I know that he did this to other women too. I don't understand the purpose of it. Was there a time that this would have been an accepted method? I have asked my therapist that I go to now why this was done to me and she gave me something to read about where memories of trauma are stored, but I don't fully understand. I asked again and she just said, "Oh we're back to that are we?" He was a clinical director but not an MD. A psychologist I think or else a type of social worker. I don't think he did anything to me physically but I don't like not remembering. Similar methods were used against me in the past to coerce me physically. I need to put a trigger on here to complete what I'm saying. Where do I reach a trigger icon?

here in New York the false memory movement began in the 1990's and is ongoing today. it is since then that our mental health governing bodies have had ethics rules on this issue regarding therapists interaction with clients.

you can contact your states ethics board they can tell you what the standards, rules and guidelines are for your location and when therapists creating false memory/false disorders movements happened where you are.

[IowaFarmGal]

Thanks to the moderator for starting the new thread! Is it still part of the forum? I didn't see it there but maybe after I put a new post in...

[IowaFarmGal]

Why would he select me to be eliminated? Why would I have less right to exist? It angered him every time I spoke, even if the questions belonged to me. My little boy was in first grade when this happened. We were sent there for follow up after his in hospital evaluation for Pervasive Development Disorder. I'm unsure what happened, because I liked the counselor we had, but something triggered the anger one. I started cutting my hair shorter and shorter. I don't even fully remember what happened. I think I said something about her jerking me around. This is not how I speak and I liked her. Little girl liked her. I was very distressed because of my son's diagnosis and I was afraid for his future, it was overwhelming, so Little Girl was active too. After the anger incident I was scheduled with him and the verbal abuse started right away. I thought maybe I was being punished, but I'm not sure what happened. He was nice to Little Girl.

[IowaFarmGal]

It's all old business.

[IowaFarmGal]

I guess I must be dreaming about it because I wake up thinking about it in the middle of the night. I asked for the trigger icon and they gave me a new thread so maybe I might as well finish it. I think it was a mistake to walk back into this.

I had a very good therapist the first time I went in. I was beginning to function as a person for the first time and have a sense of myself. He dumped me out of therapy very abruptly and I don't know why. He was cruel about it too, though he did give me the if you ever need me speech which made no sense to me because I felt like I needed at the time. It shut me down and Little Girl was literally running through the house crying. This was driving my husband crazy so he sought to pacify me by tuning in this counseling advice radio show. Little Girl was a very persistant and unwelcome caller I think. Eventually he invited her down to his office in Coral Gables which was far away from where we lived. He was a predator. He used abusive coercive techniques to obtain "consent" Little Girl is an appeaser. She will make nice chit chat with rapists and be their friend. "Love 'em anyway, no matter what" When he got done Little Girl needed to douche when she got home to avoid a bad infection. Hubby just stared at her with big eyes but nothing was ever said about it.

[IowaFarmGal]

I don't know what happened I think the cat deleted my post. I thought I had posted already. Maybe someone else got rid of it. If I'm still dreaming about it tonight maybe I'll try again. Never mind it's here.

[IowaFarmGal]

Maybe it should just be erased. I don't think it serves any purpose here.

I am trying to understand your posts. Though they are triggering me very much, I wanted to attempt a responce. I'm afraid that I cannot,however, since my head is screaming to run away from this.
I don't understand this at all.

[IowaFarmGal]

Maybe this is confirmation that I should remove it. I'm sorry.

No It's not you.....I don't understand ;that's my problem. Please don't feellike you cannot post something. I was just hoping, if I could understand, I could say something to you that would be helpful.

[IowaFarmGal]

I tried to describe who I've been and what it's been like. Maybe I am in the wrong place. I'm sorry.

Please don't be sorry. You've done nothing wrong. I think I was harsh with my response. It's my fault I didn't undersatnd. You belong here, with us. I am the one who should be sorry.

[IowaFarmGal]

Please don't you feel bad either. It's not your fault it triggers you. The moderator put a trigger icon on the one post but I think the whole thread maybe should have one. These are all difficult memories but at least far away in time.

I'm very sorry you had to go through those things. Please take good care of you.

[designer]

I know what it is like to be triggered and I get triggered very easily. I go to a counselor at a church. She does not threaten or cause any harm. She can tell when a different one is up and talks only to that one.
My friends know this also. I have a couple ones that HATE to be touched. They have told me that my eyes change and I get very hateful which is not who I am at all.
The church has worked with me for the past two years and we have come a long way. Most of my parts feel comfortable coming out when they want. I am not shunned or in any way made to feel like an outcast - on the contrary, they seem to love me more and help me stay focused when I need to be
Never stay with someone who pushes - don't trust them
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