DID and schizophrenia

purple flying monkeys -
Im not surprised your psychiatrist asked you to prove you are not your diagnosis..

here where I live and work those that are diagnosed with any mental or physical problems go through a period of denial of the diagnosis.

part of the denial process here where I live and work is about people setting out rejecting the diagnosis and try to prove they are not what ever they are diagnosed with.. doing this is perfectly normal and expected/ foreseen reaction treatment providers here where I live and work look for and encourage.. the reason being if they are doing this they are processing the fact that they have a problem and once the denial phase runs it's course with them, they are ready to move on to accepting help, being treated, getting better.

here denial/trying to prove the diagnosis isnt right and then moving on to acceptance of the diagnosis is a normal part of the normal process of mental health..

maybe your psychiatrist is trying to figure out a way for you to move forwards. a person stuck in the denial phase like you are of bouncing back and forth of one moment accepting your diagnosis and the next not accepting it, questioning what your symptoms (I get this fact from all your past conflicting posts) May not be moving you forwards..

he sees you are stuck in the same cycle over and over again. He has suggested a way that will hopefully bring you out of this never ending cycle of I have been told I have this, I dont have it, but I have been told I have this, I dont understand this, I dont have this, But Ive been told I have this, no I dont have this, what does this mean, Ive been told I have this, but this and this doesnt fit my, Ive been told I have this, but what does it mean, .....(all those conflicting questions you post about here.. might be showing to your treatment provider too, Id be surprised if he doesnt see the conflict going on in your head of whether you have what you have been diagnosed with or not.)

He has given you the next step in this process of being diagnosed with mental disorders... proving whether you have what you are diagnosed with...

now its up to you to take what you are diagnosed with and hit the books, while keeping in mind you are trying to disprove the diagnosis and see what you can find..

one of the fastest ways treatment providers here in NY use to help someone move forwards out of this conflicting cycle that you are in, is to have them challenge their diagnosis, research their diagnosis and try to prove they dont have it..

my suggestion give your psychiatrist's suggestion a try...try to prove to him you dont have what you have been diagnosed with.. maybe this will work for you. you dont lose anything by trying.

I'm stuck though, he's been so helpful in the DID area, in me dealing with my past abuse and confronting my abusers now, he's been a lot of help but that comment, and his attitude toward the possibility of schizophrenia is really upsetting...

drugs are bad but if you think they help with the disorder then they good. Only for a short time though...Like drinking too much water. Anyways to be cured simply bring your attention to yourself NOW! now your in your one state pure simply only to other humans you look like you need attention, don't go after it AlWAYS. Now you can talk and interact with people without losing focus. And this brings me to my next step you have to talk to people...Family will accept you for who you are...No Matter What. so you need to go out...Another way is to surge emotion when you hear the voices this will totally stop them in their tracks being like this makes people walk away from you instead of the latter. Now you can stay and do ON TRACK. Again the second step is to interact with other people. Two step method...slowly get off the drugs and use my methods. within two weeks i bet you'll be cured! The voices aren't all bad...too! really they latch on AND they push you both too Only it is unwise or unorthodox to listen to the voice of a rock falling. this is schizophrenia. The voices are inhuman totally a double negative so don't listen. I'm working on the hallucinations but right now I got nothing for you there....don't worry about it Your BODY WILL FIX ITSELF, naturally you will pop and wheaze like we's suppose too. Also one more thing...An itch is a pull toward an idea, it is also you becoming for others; imparting your know how/ being on them. On the other hand do what you mind only mind what you do "AND guys will act like girls and girls will act like guys"LOL just like hey "girl" or thats what she said HAHAHA

Hi PFM- just wanted to add my 2 cents.
I have been in treatment in a trauma program. In one class they talk about all the diagnoses people with trauma get through the years. A lot depends on how they present to whichever professional they see at the time. It is my understanding that there are several disorders that may be present along with PTSD, such as depression, that in the severe state can have psychotic features. I myself have had a lot of diagnoses given and taken away over the years. At this point I don't care so much what "label" they put on what's happening inside of me, I just want them to help me cope with the symptoms (which could include meds), while I do the deeper work of healing. I have never really been able to be put in an absolute diagnostic category and have had a lot of professionals scratching their head. I'm (almost!) to the point of not caring about the diagnostic criteria at all. No need to label me, just HELP me!

(Hope this helps, and sorry if it was more than 2 cents worth! )

I spoke to t yet again on Wednesday about my concerns of it being schizophrenic and not DID. He assured me that he and my PDOC are 100% convinced that it's not schizophrenia or psychosis but is in fact DID and PTSD.

I've stopped smoking marijuanna 8 weeks ago. But I don't feel different. That "high" I felt is not gone, I still feel the exact same as I did when I was smoking marijuanna, only it's harder to eat and relax now. But my head feels the same, which leads me to believe the marijuanna wasn't causing the symptoms. I haven't touched it in 8 weeks and don't plan to for quite a while. While I can see the benefits, it's been too long since I smoked last and I remember when I started smoking. Blackouts, and everything seemed like it was in frames of a movie of some sort. Like I would be watching TV and when someone would say something to me, I'd look at them and it would be as if I were changing "scenes" and I would look the other way when someone knocked on the door and it was like I changed "scenes" again. That's the best way I can figure to explain it. But it took so much energy feeling like everything changed every time my eyes moved to something else that I would have to sit back with my eyes closed until it wore off a bit. Eventually that stopped and the blackouts became less, and I'd just dissociate a lot.

But 8 weeks later I'm dissociating the same, and nothing seems to have changed but my appetite and relaxation. I had dissociative issues LONG before smoking marijuanna though. And when I first tried it (years after multiple blackouts and dissociative episodes) it always felt like I was drunk when I would smoke. Drugs don't effect me like they do others.

But I'm away from marijuanna and all other illegal drugs. I'm however considering rescheduling with my PDOC to try and get on Ativan or Valium for night time. 4 times this week I have been trying to fall asleep and then start to hear them talking (internally) about nonsense, places I've never been to or thought twice about, things I know nothing about etc. But the thing that gets me is without even realizing when I start to hear them I hold my breath. I don't realize it until moments later and I'm gasping for air, thus causing mild panic attacks. I had too many to count last night, and today my nerves have been on edge partly due to lack of sleep and partly due to the night ahead and if it will happen again.

I'm just a mess of problems. Wish there was a shepphard Pratt near me

I have a parent with schizophrenia. Does anyone know if there could be a link in the genes somewhere and the kid gets it?

For example... I often fantasize in a delusional reality I create in my head. I am constantly hearing an airplane engine in my ears too.

As shown by my other posts.. this mental divergence came about from extreme loneliness in lacking friends and a partner.

So to cope with loneliness I invent entire worlds.
SO WHAT DISEASE DO I HAVE EXACTLY IM NOT SURE???

Please dont tell me go to a doctor I cannot afford that at all now.

I've noticed lately I also am drawn to military movies. Dont worry Im not a gun nut or something... Im drawn to the power and tactics. The other day I daydreamed about being a general in an imaginary war.

HOW DO YOU COPE WITH THESE DELUSIONS SO THEY DONT AFFECT DAILY LIFE????